Chapter 230: I Don’t Want to…

Yu Shi Lan rubbed Xiao Mao’s head. “As a cultivator, why should you be afraid of danger? This much is nothing, Xiao Mao.”

“Meow!” <But you really like to take risk, Miss! There’s really no need for you to do this in the slightest bit.>

Xiao Mao still disagreed.

“But the other options are not acceptable to me,” Yu Shi Lan said calmly.

Finding someone to protect her… is Yu Shi Lan not afraid that the other party would suddenly take out his weapon and stabbed her from the back. The moment her dantian shattered, her cultivation path would be over and Yu Shi Lan would die.

She had never experienced the feeling of having her dantian shattered in her previous life and Yu Shi Lan didn’t want to experience it even more after coming back to life.

She’s not stupid.

Why should she provoke other people and put herself in mortal danger?

And Yu Shi Lan wasn’t even sure that she could build trust deep enough to entrust her life in someone else’s hand so quickly. Being betrayed so many times in the cultivation world had given Xiao Mao some PTSD.

Yu Shi Lan herself didn’t really want to experience the painful feeling of being betrayed repeatedly again.

She had killed so many people in this world.

All were people who offended her.

The other option was to prepare the Foundation Establishment Pill. After roaming around the mountain in the snow, Yu Shi Lan had naturally found some herbs that could perfectly replace the Foundation Establishment Pill.

In other words: she could make it.

The problem is, Yu Shi Lan couldn’t find a suitable cauldron to start her journey as an alchemist. It was not impossible to use pans… but the quality would be lowered several times because it was not suitable.

Yu Shi Lan didn’t want to waste these medicinal materials.

So she had been looking for suitable cauldron to use.

“Meow…” <That’s…>

Xiao Mao opened her cat mouth and then closed it again painfully.

She seemed to realize what Yu Shi Lan meant and could only agree that Yu Shi Lan’s decision was indeed the best option. Because Xiao Mao knew that Yu Shi Lan had experienced this before and this time shouldn’t be as dangerous as before…

Right?

Still, Xiao Mao still felt annoyed by the fact that Yu Shi Lan would be in danger when attempting break through in the future.

She wouldn’t be able to protect Yu Shi Lan again like this.

Just thinking about it made Xiao Mao restless.

Yu Shi Lan was walking in the snow and naturally sensed Xiao Mao’s restless movement in her pocket. Her resolute gaze turned a shade gentler as she rubbed Xiao Mao’s head.

“Don’t worry too much, Xiao Mao. I’ll never attempt any break through before I’m absolutely sure.” Yu Shi Lan gave a smile. “And as a cultivator, how could I be afraid of cultivation tribulation? If I want to advance further, then I have to face it bravely and courageously.”

Xiao Mao raised her head.

She could see Yu Shi Lan’s gentle look amidst the falling snow on the background.

At this moment, Yu Shi Lan’s skin looked even paler amidst the backdrop, yet she looked healthy.

She’s really beautiful.

Most importantly… Yu Shi Lan is alive.

Xiao Mao gave a weak cat meow and then curled up her body once more.

She knew very well that a cultivator was basically people who attempted to fight against the fate and thus they fought hard.

But…

Xiao Mao really didn’t want to put Yu Shi Lan in danger.

It was precisely because she has deep feeling for her master that Xiao Mao hoped that Yu Shi Lan could live safe and sound instead of moving forward in this dangerous cultivation world.

But Xiao Mao also knew that it’s impossible for her to make Yu Shi Lan stop.

Yu Shi Lan has her own aspiration.

She had a happy yet lonely childhood in her first quarter of her life. With her father only came back from time to time, Yu Shi Lan had gotten used to be alone by herself.

Thanks to this experience, Yu Shi Lan would not feel anything even if she had to stay in a secluded place to meditate for months or even years.

Xiao Mao knew this very well.

This is Yu Shi Lan’s foundation and also what allowed her to become a powerful cultivator. Even if it was not exactly pleasant, it was what built Yu Shi Lan to be what she is now.

Being oppressed and bullied in the first half of her life, Yu Shi Lan had learned to be patient and also ruthless. Because she knew the feeling of those who were weak and learned how to fight back.

This made her wiling to use some unconventional moves that many cultivators usually avoided to use.

Xiao Mao had seen Yu Shi Lan used various traps to kill her enemies.

Very despicable.

And also very ruthless.

She knew very well that Yu Shi Lan used the experience when she was being oppressed to fuel her fighting spirit in the early stage.

’I don’t want to be bullied again.’

’I don’t want to get hit again.’

’I don’t want to be that helpless girl again.’

With these words as motivation, Yu Shi Lan kept on standing up no matter whom she faced.

Her childhood was difficult and there were many regrets remained that Yu Shi Lan couldn’t change. She woke up too late in her previous life or it was more like, she gathered her courage somewhat too late.

This made her very helpless to fight back and had to compromise over and over.

After all, growth required journey.

Yu Shi Lan couldn’t become extremely brave all of the sudden in her previous life.

Now after experiencing more than a decade of carnage and fighting, what left was the Yu Shi Lan who had been tempered and dared to fight and kill.

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