Chapter 84: Omega Bloom

ASHER

It had been two weeks since I stopped hiding. Two weeks since I walked into that classroom and let go of every wall I had built and watched them crumble in real time. Two weeks of no suppressants, no careful scent management, no performance of something I was never meant to be.

Two weeks of just being myself. I hadn’t expected it to feel like this. I had expected relief maybe or vulnerability or the particular rawness of a wound finally allowed to breathe. What I hadn’t expected was the physical change. The visible, undeniable, and impossible to ignore physical change that had apparently been waiting patiently underneath years of chemical suppression for the moment I stopped fighting it.

It started with my skin. I noticed it first in the mirror during my morning routine. A clarity I hadn’t seen before. A warmth underneath the surface that had nothing to do with fever and everything to do with something settling into its natural state. My face looked different. Not dramatically, just more defined somehow, more present, and like a photograph coming into focus.

Then my hair, thicker and softer. Then the weight I’d been carrying in my shoulders for years, that permanent tension of someone always braced for discovery, began to dissolve in increments so small I only noticed by comparison. I stood differently, moved differently. Took up space in a way I never had before because I’d spent three years making myself as unremarkable and forgettable as possible.

I wasn’t doing that anymore and apparently my body had opinions about that.

The scent was the part I couldn’t control or ignore. Without suppressants my natural Omega scent had returned fully, and whatever it had been before it was something more now. Sweeter, warmer and layered in a way that I could smell on my own clothes and that made the air in my room feel different when I’d been in it for a while.

I knew what it was doing to the Alphas around me. I could see it in the way they moved when I passed. Not the anger of the first week, that had mostly settled into a tense, grudging tolerance enforced by Reed’s claim.

This was different, more involuntary, the slight pause in movement. The almost imperceptible turn of a head. The way conversations dropped half a register when I walked through a room.

Nobody touched me, nobody would dare but the awareness was constant and I felt it like a second skin.

What I hadn’t fully prepared myself for was Reed. He had always watched me. Even before the bond, even when I was his target and his project and his inconvenience, Reed Jackson had always had his eyes on me.

I had learned early to feel his gaze from across a room, to know without looking when his attention had shifted in my direction but this was different. This was something I didn’t have a word for yet.

He was everywhere, not violating headmaster Voss’s conditions, never close enough to interfere with the punishment, but present in a way that had changed quality since the exposure. Since the public claiming. Since the night in his room that I was not going to think about while I was trying to function in daylight.

He watched me during grounds duty from the upper window of the east wing. I knew because the bond told me before I looked up and found him there, arms crossed, just watching. Not with the cold possessive surveillance of before, with something that sat closer to the way you watch something you’re terrified of losing.

He watched me during meals from across the room. I sat alone as Voss had instructed and I ate and I kept my eyes on my food and I felt Reed’s gaze on the side of my face like warmth from a fire.

He watched me in classes from two rows back and one seat to the left and every time the professor said something that required a response I knew without turning around that Reed’s eyes were already on me before I spoke.

I could feel it through the bond, that constant warm thread of attention. Not intrusive, not demanding, just present and steady like a hand resting somewhere nearby without touching.

That was the part that confused me because the Reed who had pinned me to the wall and told me he would make me wish I was never born was the Reed I knew how to navigate.

The Reed who used my secret as currency and pulled me into rooms and made demands was familiar territory. I had learned the shape of that Reed and I knew where the edges were and I knew how to move around them.

This Reed I didn’t know what to do with.

Three days ago he had been walking past me during grounds duty, technically within the boundary of headmaster Voss’s restriction, and he had stopped. Just for a moment. Long enough to crouch down and pick up the rake I had dropped without noticing and set it back against the wall beside me without a word, without a look that demanded anything and without making it mean something I was supposed to respond to.

He had just picked it up and kept walking.

I had stood there holding the handle and staring at the space where he’d been for an embarrassingly long time.

Yesterday during kitchen duty I had been struggling with a pot that was heavier than I could manage at the angle I was working from and before I could adjust my grip I felt the weight suddenly lighten and I looked up and Reed was there, hands beside mine on the handle, not looking at me, not saying anything, just helping me move it to the counter and then stepping back and leaving without a single word.

Headmaster Voss had not seen nor did anyone and I had not reported it. I had stood at the counter and pressed my palm flat against the metal surface and breathed through the warmth spreading through the bond and told myself it meant nothing. That Reed Jackson doing something kind was tactical. That everything he did was toward an end. That I knew better than to let warmth from him land anywhere it could take root. I knew better.

I was pulling weeds from the east garden bed that afternoon when I heard footsteps on the path behind me and looked up expecting one of the groundskeeping staff. It was Reed.

He stopped a few feet away. The correct distance from Voss’s distance. His hands in his jacket pockets and his eyes on me with that expression I couldn’t figure, the one that had replaced the cold surveillance and the possessive fury and everything else I knew how to read.

He looked at me for a moment.

Then he said, quietly, “You missed a section. Left side, near the wall.”

I looked at the left side near the wall and he was right.

I moved to it without a word and started working and after a moment I heard his footsteps again, moving away, back toward the building.

I sat back on my heels and stared at the weeds in my hands. What are you doing, I thought. Not at myself but at him because this was more disorienting than anything else he had ever done to me.

The threats I could brace against, the possessiveness I could build walls around, the Reed who grabbed my wrist and pinned me to walls and made promises in the dark that scared me because I wanted to believe them, that Reed I had learned to survive.

This Reed who picked up dropped rakes and steadied heavy pots and walked past me at exactly Voss’s required distance and looked at me like I was something he was choosing to be careful with— I didn’t know how to survive this Reed.

The bond pulsed warmly in my chest.

I pressed my fist against my chest and pushed it back down and went back to pulling weeds and told myself very firmly that the semester was still moving, that the end was still coming, that warmth was not the same as a choice and proximity was not the same as permanence and Reed Jackson being gentle with me now did not change the fact that his father was still out there and the pack was still waiting and the ultimatum had not gone anywhere.

It had not gone anywhere and I knew that. I did but as the afternoon light shifted across the garden and the bond hummed quietly in my chest and somewhere behind me in the east wing window I felt the familiar warmth of Reed’s gaze settle on my shoulders like something that had decided to stay—

I was finding it harder and harder to remember why that mattered and that terrified me more than anything else had because I could survive Reed’s cruelty. I had been surviving it for years.

What I wasn’t sure I could survive was this.

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