Chapter 49: Can I Join You..?
I lie on the bed, a king in a sea of silk and memory foam. My body is a lead weight, exhausted, but sleep is a traitor. It dances just beyond the reach of my heavy eyelids.
I stare at the ornate ceiling. Back in my real life—
Whole days of study and grinding part-time work, then whole nights, devouring Omegaverse novels. Two hours of sleep was a luxury. I craved the escape, the intensity, the feeling those stories gave me. Now I’m living inside one, and the irony is a bitter pill.
I sit up, stretching until my joints protest.
What should I do?
The restlessness is a live wire under my skin. I stand and walk to the balcony.The glass door slides open with a whisper.
The night air is a slap of cold clarity. I step into it, letting the chill sear my lungs. God, why can’t I sleep? Even this borrowed, privileged body has its limits, but my mind refuses to power down.
I rub the back of my neck.
I rub the back of my neck. That strange—staticky feeling is there again.
I close my eyes, take deep, shuddering breaths, let the cold scouring wash over my face.
But it doesn’t.
The loneliness hits then, sharp and sudden.
Deniz’s words echo, a perfect, polite dagger.
I have plans.
Plans…
What does that even mean?
A dinner?
A date?
A quiet evening, shared with someone who matters.
I open my eyes to a void. The sky is a black velvet sheet, devoid of moon or stars. An empty stage.
Neon, you’re being selfish. The thought is clear, cold as the air. How can you decide he’s yours?
He’s only yours if he feels the same. You don’t own his heart just because you want it.
I blink up at the nothingness. Maybe he likes someone else. The possibility is a physical ache. If he does… I should accept it. His choice. His happiness.
A lesson learned from the ghost in my own head. Don’t walk the path Zyren walked. His love for Angel was real, they say. But instead of respecting Angel’s choice, he decided to claim him. To own him. Against his will.
I am not Zyren. The resolution firms inside me, a small, hard stone of principle. I want to see the people I care about happy. Even if their happiness means… being separate from me.
The sigh that leaves me is a white cloud in the dark, carrying the weight of that promise. My gaze falls from the empty sky to the mansion grounds below. The grand garden is a tapestry of shadow and soft, golden light. Topiaries stand like silent sentinels. Flowers sway in a gentle, night-time breeze.
Then my gaze catches.
Not on something dangerous. Not scary.
Something beautiful.
Angel.
He’s sitting alone on a stone bench, half-hidden by a trellis of night-blooming jasmine. His golden hair moves softly in the same wind that chills me. The garden’s warm lantern light gilds his pale skin, catches in his downcast eyes, making them shine like liquid amber in the dark—precious and sad.
I stare. What is he doing out here alone so late? The night is cold. If he stays, he’ll catch a chill.
Concern overrides the heavy fatigue in my bones. I turn, walk back through the sliding door, and am out of my room in seconds, moving on instinct. My steps are quick on the grand staircase, a frantic patter in the sleeping silence. I don’t grab a coat. I’m still in my thin pajamas, the night’s chill biting through the fabric as I push open the side door and step into the garden.
The cold is immediate, sharp. But I barely feel it. My focus is on that solitary figure. Did something happen? Is he hurt?
My pace is hurried, feet silent on the dew-damp grass. “Angel?” My voice cuts through the quiet, trembling slightly—part worry, part cold. “Angel, are you okay?”
He flinches, a full-body startle, and looks up.
His eyes, those beautiful, haunted golden eyes, widen in pure shock. He wasn’t expecting anyone. Least of all me, appearing out of the dark like a worried ghost in sleepwear.
For a moment, we just stare at each other in the lantern-lit garden, two lonely souls caught in the quiet of a world that’s asked too much of both of us.
“Angel… what are you doing here?”
My breath comes out a little uneven, betrayed by the hurried steps that brought me down.
He startles to his feet.
“Young Master…?”
I look him over from head to toe. He lowers his gaze, fingers curling lightly at his sides. His voice soft. “I felt a little strange,” he says quietly. “I couldn’t sleep. So I thought… some fresh air might help.”
Fresh air?
In this chill?
I sigh, the sound a white cloud between us. “What if you catch a cold?”
He looks up then, almost startled, and gestures to himself. “I’m wearing warm clothes,” he says, pointing to the light shawl resting on the bench. “And i have this.”
Then his gaze travels over me—my disheveled hair, the thin, obviously inadequate pajamas clinging to me in the night air. His eyes widen with a concern that mirrors my own just moments ago.
Before I can protest, he’s moving. He takes the warm shawl from the bench and drapes it over my shoulders. The residual heat from his body is a shock against my chilled skin.
“What about you?” he frets, his voice hushed but urgent. “Coming out like this… you’ll freeze.”
I try to shrug it off. “No, I’m fine—”
He insists, gently settling the fabric more firmly. His touch is brief, careful. “Please, Young Master.”
I stare at him. In the soft, diffused light, his face is all gentle worry and etched shadows. He meets my gaze, then asks softly, “Why are you still awake?”
I blink, looking away into the dark garden. “I couldn’t sleep either.”
He looks down, a silent acknowledgment of shared insomnia. “I see.”
I turn my head back to him. “Can I join you?”
He flinches again, a tiny, almost imperceptible recoil, as if the question itself is startling. Can I join you? It must sound like a foreign concept here.
“Can I join you?” I repeat, softer. “Enjoying the fresh night air?”
He stares at me for a long moment, his golden eyes searching mine in the dim light. Finally, he gives a slow, hesitant nod.
I step forward and sit on the cold stone bench. He remains standing, a respectful half-step away. I look up at him. “Sit.”
He hesitates, then finally lowers himself to sit beside me, leaving a careful, polite space between us. I turn my attention to the night-blooming jasmine, their scent a sweet, intoxicating ribbon in the cold air. “They’re beautiful.”
Angel nods in silent agreement beside me.
Then I look at him, a small idea forming. “We can share this.” I gesture to the shawl now draped over my own shoulders.
His eyes widen slightly. “No, I’m fine—”
“The air is cold,” I say, my voice leaving no room for his polite refusal. “Let’s share it.”
Before he can protest further, I shift, extending one side of the warm woolen fabric. I lean slightly, draping it over his shoulder as well. The movement eliminates the careful distance he’d maintained.
We fall into silence—two figures under one shawl, breathing the same night air, saying nothing, yet understanding far more than words allow.
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- Chapter 216: I Feel Like I’m Dreaming....
- Chapter 215: Zyren… You Look Gorgeous...
- Chapter 214: This Time, I Have No Regrets...
- Chapter 213: How Am I Supposed To Accept This?
- Chapter 212: Kill Me....
- Chapter 211: My Body Requires An Alpha…
- Chapter 210: Take Care Of Yourself, Angel...
- Chapter 209: How Could Angel Do This?
- Chapter 208: I Will Never Stop Loving You..
- Chapter 207: Am I Really… Dying Like This?
- Chapter 206: Love Has No Rules...
- Chapter 205: Angel Doesn’t Feel The Same...
- Chapter 204: It’s Just Dinner...
- Chapter 203: I Realized It From The Beginning...
- Chapter 202: The Same Impossible Dream...
- Chapter 201: A Month Since Moon Left..
- Chapter 200: Without A Goodbye...
- Chapter 199: He Won’t Come Back...
- Chapter 198: Why Can’t I Just Walk Away?
- Chapter 197: Would You Still Stay With That Beta?
- Chapter 196: Belongs To Someone Else...
- Chapter 195: Did He Just Say Thank You?
- Chapter 194: What Else Didn’t The Novel Say?
- Chapter 193: How Do I Become Heartless… Like Him?
- Chapter 192: Sometimes Words Make Things More Complicated...
- Chapter 191: Why… Are His Eyes Gold?
- Chapter 190: Just Hurting Me Differently...
- Chapter 189: I Love Him Most Like This....
- Chapter 188: You’re My Most Effective Medicine...
- Chapter 187: Why Are You Acting Like This?
- Chapter 186: What Was He Trying To Say?
- Chapter 185: Golden Omega....
- Chapter 184: Something I Don’t Recognize....
- Chapter 183: I’m Here... I’m Yours...
- Chapter 182: I Don’t Want To Lose My Pheromones...
- Chapter 181: I’m Not An Alpha Anymore...
- Chapter 180: You’re A Terrible Kisser, Zyren...
- Chapter 179: He’s Something He Shouldn’t Be...
- Chapter 178: Why Do You Smell Like An Omega?
- Chapter 177: Making Love... Last Night...
- Chapter 176: He’s A Foodie Now?
- Chapter 175: It’s Your Punishment...
- Chapter 174: He Didn’t Do Anything....
- Chapter 173: Something Off...
- Chapter 172: Everyone Deserves A Second Chance...
- Chapter 171: It Feels Like Heaven...
- Chapter 170: I’d Rather Live Alone...
- Chapter 169: I’m Your Present... And Your Future....
- Chapter 168: Eyes Like Winter Stars..
- Chapter 167: A Perfect Night… Almost
- Chapter 166: Sweeter Than Anything....
- Chapter 165: This Is Our Stop..
- Chapter 164: This Is Everything I Wanted...
- Chapter 163: Let’s Be Stupid And Young And In Love. ..
- Chapter 162: Night And Moon—Meant For Each Other
- Chapter 161: You’re Mine, Zyren...
- Chapter 160: Your Omega Is Truly Incredible.. Beautiful..
- Chapter 159: Too Strong For A Beta...
- Chapter 158: My Pink Bunny...
- Chapter 157: The Silence Of Love♡
- Chapter 156: I’ll Wait... For The Day You Come Back To Me...
- Chapter 155: There’s No ’Better’ Or ’Worse’ Here...
- Chapter 154: Let’s Start Fresh... A New Beginning..
- Chapter 153: I’ve Loved You Since We Were Children...
- Chapter 152: You’re The Reason..
- Chapter 151: Now In Return Be My bride...
- Chapter 150: I’m Trying To Be A Gentleman..
- Chapter 149: Dreaming With Open Eyes...
- Chapter 148: Your Eyes.. They Look Sad...
- Chapter 147: Monster In Human Skin..?
- Chapter 146: Why Are You Like This?
- Chapter 145: Do You Feel Like My Secret Lover Now?
- Chapter 144: I’ll Say It... You’re My Omega...
- Chapter 143: No One Can Take Your Place....
- Chapter 142: Let’s Sit Down And Talk....
- Chapter 141: You Need To Give Me Something In Return..
- Chapter 140: I Have An Offer For You...
- Chapter 139: Aren’t I Your Family Too...?
- Chapter 138: What If He Leaves?
- Chapter 137: The Cost Of A Fantasy
- Chapter 136: Because That’s What Family Does...
- Chapter 135: We Can’t Reveal Our Relationship...
- Chapter 134: Every Night, I’ll Remind You..
- Chapter 133: I Was The Bottom..
- Chapter 132: Zyren.... Touch Me..
- Chapter 131: When Did You Start Liking Me?
- Chapter 130: I Am Just... Loved...
- Chapter 129: Cutey Are You Single....?
- Chapter 128: Unfortunately You’re Not My Omega...
- Chapter 127: Because I Like Your Scent...
- Chapter 126: A Surprise.... For Me..
- Chapter 125: He Came Back To Me..
- Chapter 124: The Damn Cream-Colored... Card
- Chapter 123: Who Is This Omega?
- Chapter 122: I’m a Beta.....
- Chapter 121: I Feel Like I Know Nothing...
- Chapter 120: Betas Don’t Have Pheromones...
- Chapter 119: Just Him.. Just Me.. Just Heaven♡
- Chapter 118: You Could Hide From Me?
- Chapter 117: Dream, Illusion, Or Reality
- Chapter 116: He Doesn’t Like—
- Chapter 115: In Your Room.. Like Before..
- Chapter 114: A Little Late-Blooming Omega?
- Chapter 113: Teddy Bear...
- Chapter 112: You’re The One Who Changed..
- Chapter 111: This Is Payback...
- Chapter 110: Something Is Off...
- Chapter 109: Were You Jealous?
- Chapter 108: Kiss Him... Kiss Him Now...
- Chapter 107: A Shy Nod of Yes
- Chapter 106: I Love You ♡
- Chapter 105: Teenagers Behind The Bleachers
- Chapter 104: A Terrible (Kiss) Fight♡
- Chapter 103: Walking On Clouds
- Chapter 102: Family Deserves Honesty
- Chapter 101: Is There Someone In Your Life?"
- Chapter 100: Your Whole Attention
- Chapter 99: Just… Stay With Me
- Chapter 98: The Love Hasn’t Faded... It Has Been Deleted...
- Chapter 97: A Worried, Angry Angel...
- Chapter 96: Why Is He Acting Like This?
- Chapter 95: You’re Overthinking... Little Bunny..
- Chapter 94: Retired Villain’s Burning Cheeks
- Chapter 93: My Favorite Place In Any World
- Chapter 92: Ready To Pay Anything For Him....
- Chapter 91: You Can Be An Angel In Hell..?
- Chapter 90: I Want To See Him....
- Chapter 89: A Bunny’s Deal..
- Chapter 88: Cute Bunny ♡
- Chapter 87: Finally... I Win...
- Chapter 86: I Want An Answer....
- Chapter 85: First Snowfall♡
- Chapter 84: I Need To Find Someone Else...
- Chapter 83: Bittersweet Couple...?
- Chapter 82: Two Passes, Please....
- Chapter 81: You’re The Problem
- Chapter 80: Between Us...?
- Chapter 79: Trapped Rabbit
- Chapter 78: Handsome Guest
- Chapter 77: How Did We End Up Here?
- Chapter 76: The Unexpected Question
- Chapter 75: It Felt Like… Disappointment
- Chapter 74: Are You Sure You’re An Alpha..?
- Chapter 73: I Didn’t Think You’d be This Useless.....
- Chapter 72: Male Lead Staring At Me...?
- Chapter 71: Is Angel… Trying To Kiss Me?
- Chapter 70: Sun And Moon
- Chapter 69: Sugar and Soft Laughter
- Chapter 68: Borrowed Warmth
- Chapter 67: I Mean— Every Single Word
- Chapter 66: Blackmail Was the Plan. The Kiss Wasn’t...
- Chapter 65: I Want You....
- Chapter 64: My Best Friend...
- Chapter 63: Good Match
- Chapter 62: Your Dream?
- Chapter 61: Flustered Mystery
- Chapter 60: Forget it...
- Chapter 59: My First Real— Kiss ♡
- Chapter 58: Beauty..?
- Chapter 57: Why Did You Hide This?
- Chapter 56: Find Deniz
- Chapter 55: I Should Stop Trying...
- Chapter 54: A Confession
- Chapter 53: Good Morning... Zyren ♡
- Chapter 52: I’ve Ruined Everything.
- Chapter 51: One Hundred And Four
- Chapter 50: Be My— Family
- Chapter 49: Can I Join You..?
- Chapter 48: You’re Just Drunk On Power
- Chapter 47: A Purer Kind Of Scheme
- Chapter 46: Little Villain
- Chapter 45: You Left Me Here.... Alone
- Chapter 44: Is My Pillow Softer... Or Is Your Chest?
- Chapter 43: He’s Just A Beta... A Side Character
- Chapter 42: Just Sleep...On The Bed
- Chapter 41: Stop Saying Cute.. Say Handsome
- Chapter 40: I Have Good Cleaning Skills
- Chapter 39: Deniz… Can I Stay At Your House Tonight?
- Chapter 38: Mommy… What is Love?
- Chapter 37: Who Is The Villain, Really?
- Chapter 36: How You’d Look Wearing Something… Precious
- Chapter 35: I Don’t Want To Leave You…
- Chapter 34: God—Have Mercy On Me
- Chapter 33: The Reason Zyren Kael Became A Villain.
- Chapter 32: All I Want Is to Comfort You
- Chapter 31: If My Partner Is You... I’m Ready To be an Omega
- Chapter 30: We Look… Perfect
- Chapter 29: A D-Class Alpha… Rare?
- Chapter 28: I’m Not An Omega! I’m An Alpha
- Chapter 27: Give Me A Bright Smile Instead Of A Thank You
- Chapter 26: Something Beautiful... Like Him
- Chapter 25: Let’s Spend The Whole Weekend Together
- Chapter 24: I Respect Your Choice, Angel
- Chapter 23: Body Of Retired Villain
- Chapter 22: Like Foolish Teenagers
- Chapter 21: It Would Be Someone Like You
- Chapter 20: That Was Definitely Not In The Novel
- Chapter 19: I’m Extraordinary Lucky
- Chapter 18: Why Am I Paying for Zyren?
- Chapter 17: Pink Rose Stands For Friendship
- Chapter 16: My Favorite Book Character ♡
- Chapter 15: Cold Punishment
- Chapter 14: Different Reasons. Same Loneliness.
- Chapter 13: I Want A Future With Him...
- Chapter 12: Even I’m Villain... I Will Survive.
- Chapter 11: Together...? Yes Together.
- Chapter 10: What About A Strawberry Cake....?
- Chapter 9: I Change The Script
- Chapter 8: Get A Grip Neon....
- Chapter 7: Small Steps Are Enough
- Chapter 6: Things Begin To Change
- Chapter 5: I’ll Fix This
- Chapter 4: The First Deviation
- Chapter 3: I’m Going To Rewrite Everything
- Chapter 2: Woke Up as the Villain
- Chapter 1: If I Were the Villain