Chapter 76: Embarrassing Memories

’It’s again, those damned devil worshiper punks that played a trick on them.’

The Shen family Patriarch met one of these cultists by chance during one of his trips, and learned a kind of demonic cultivation which made him this strong and improved his cultivation rank by leaps and bounds.

Now all the family members of his family are also using this method to cultivate and getting strong.

Just thinking about it was enough to give Yun Shu a throbbing headache.

Just a while ago, she had to deal with a packet of trash made by them and dispose of it using her own hands, even if that cursed pit of meat wasn’t something that could take a toll on her,Yun Shu was traumatized by the scene for a while.

Now she had to take on another mess? Seriously?

“Hah, whatever. I’ll just take it as some kind of exercise.”

As she thought, Yun Shu began to plan what her next step would be as she walked further away from the library hall.

***

The next day,

Bai Yunxian went back to the library again as he walked inside the secret hall of the library.

“Inscription, inscription… ” While muttering the word again and again, Bai Yunxian looked for the scroll and books up and down, finally finding it on the corner of a shelf.

The old books page made of papyrus didn’t hold much life in them, they were in rags by the time spent inside rotting away.

There was dust on the cover, which accumulated over many years. Bai Yunxian started coughing after trying to clean the dust without proper measure.

“Cough, cough, cough…! These books are meant to torment me, aren’t they?” He questioned himself with annoyance, but was very happy to finally get them.

As he quickly wanted to get out of the place and start reading, Bai Yunxian paced, not noticing the few books that were all over the floor.

Bam!

Ouch!

With a loud thud, Bai Yunxian fell over the wooden ground of the library room, getting scratched on his body here and there.

“Just my rotten luck, how am I supposed to go out looking like this?” Bai Yunxian said as he tried to stand up and clean the dust off of his body.

Crack, crack, crack, crunch…!

The more he kept moving, the more he kept making noise on the wooden floor, but Bai Yunxian didn’t pay any special attention to that, thinking that it was due to the wood rotting for ages, it wasn’t something special or new.

“Let’s get out of here first, I’ll take care of my clothes soon after.” Bai Yunxian thought as he stood up, till he suddenly remembered the certain memories from the day before and felt his legs go weak.

Bai Yunxian slid down on the wooden floor again as he covered his face which was brimming red hot. The events that happened yesterday were so embarrassing that he only realized them later on, and thanks to this stupid realization, he wasn’t able to sleep all night long, later he ended up having those dazzling black eye bags under his eyes.

’Why did I suddenly lose my cool in front of a stranger I don’t even know? It’s definitely strange that I find him to be so familiar, but, still…! How could it be…’

Both doubt, confusion and embarrassment worked together in Bai Yunxian which made him fall in this state, but he couldn’t bear to get himself to investigate this matter.

Perhaps it was because that man reminded him of a certain someone whom he missed dearly, Bai Yunxian subconsciously wanted to rely on him a little.

’No, you can’t do that. Wake up to your reality, Bai Yunxian. That man can’t be different from that man that only knows coveting something forbidden, you shouldn’t let down your guard no matter what.’

The only person who will treat you like a proper human being and not an object you can control however you want isn’t here.

Wake up from this dream and learn to face reality, you can’t get swayed by others’ fake innocence and gratitude.’

Though Bai Yunxian wanted to deny this reality, he felt upset whenever he thought of that masked man’s cold exterior cleared up his memories once again.

“Come to think of it, Jiao Zhan and the others said that this man was prone to taking beauties in his bed, or pouncing at beautiful boys all the time. If so, why didn’t he try something with me?” Like a wake up call, Bai Yunxiam wondered as he mumbled by himself.

Originally, all the men that got interested in him were prone to harass him the moment they met, or force themselves on him no matter how he was. However, he was inside that room alone with that man for more than half an hour, and he showed no signs of lusting after him, but instead, he seemed to be enjoying teasing him. That was the strangest thing to ever happen with Bai Yunxian.

Was he truly not interested in me?

If so, then… Could the rumors be wrong?

Bai Yunxian didn’t know if what he thought was true, but subconsciously, he felt grateful for finding at least one man here who wasn’t as disgusting as all those morons out there who either coveted him or hated him.

Like why would they even hate me for having something that I didn’t wish for?

Bai Yunxian didn’t understand, nor did he wish to understand.

Those people were so sloppy and stupid, no wonder people wouldn’t like them, but it’s also true that Bai Yunxian didn’t wish to have that kind of affection. In fact, he would’ve been relieved if all that attention he had were to be directed at someone else.

In this way, he wouldn’t need to live this suffocating life. He could breathe freely, like a normal person.

Sometimes, Bai Yunxian wondered what it would be like to live a normal life.

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