Chapter 133: Toa and Totalica

He had a purpose, I didnt want to know the purpose though. When I heard him I realized he had come up from that dark place to kill them. His purpose was revenge.

I couldnt stop him, and when he came back he said hed taken down a country. I knew hed gone to kill someone but I didnt know he would bring down a country.

Nem stayed loyal and didnt deny him. Although I thought she was just too little to understand.

He said he has no regrets.

Sierra denied him, I agree that what he did was wrong. But I wont deny him, I cannot deny Masamune.

Then we traveled, we went to school and Sierra left to be replaced with Sufilia. And before I knew it Nito was a hero and a dungeon clearer.

Nito is amazing, but I am nothing without him. When the empire came, even though I am a demon I couldnt do anything against them. Without Nito I would have died.

Masamune?

A chill had run down my spine when that woman had called his name. When I asked about her all he said was that she was his childhood friend. My only friends were the maids as I waited for my family to come back, I was alone in the castle.

Why did you tell me not to kill him?

When he asked me that something felt strange inside me.

Do you not remember Toa? You told me to let him go.

I dont know, even if you ask me I dont know. What are you saying Nito?

I dont know..

What did I do?

Toa, you dont have to think about it anymore. Just breath.

Nito, I could hear Masamunes voice. I dont like it here, I cant see anything, theres no one.

Suddenly my vision cleared and I saw Masamune next to me.

Im..okay.

Was that my voice? It didnt sound like my voice? My senses were coming back. But I dont understand.

What happened?

I dreamed that night, I quickly realized that it was a dream.

Where.

My voice was strange.

It was a forest, I could hear the birds chirping as the sun shined down through the trees.

I know this forest, its the forest near the castle. I was attacked by a Leowolf here and my father forbid me to go back. Soon I wasnt allowed to leave the castle at all.

What?!

Then suddenly the trees began to buzz. It felt like they were looking down at me, rejecting me.

I got scared and ran.

I dont like this forest, all there is here is loneliness. But I dont know why, I dont know anything about this forest.

I ran, but the more I did the further away the castle got. The more I asked for light the darker it got.

Huh?

Suddenly the forest had gone dark.

Why? ..why?

I ran, my mind gripped by fear. I wasnt tired but my breathing was rough.

When I stopped I was out of the forest. But yet, I wasnt. It was a lake, and when I looked down I could see my reflection.

Yeah.once before..

Id been here before, but I cant remember when. I hadnt been into the forest since. I dont remember.

What is that?

I saw something approaching me in the surface of the lake. I feel like I should know what it is but I dont. I cant remember.

I squinted trying to see.

You dont have to look.

There was a voice behind me and I turned around surprised.

Youll remember it someday.

W, who are you?

I couldnt understand.

Why do you have my face?

Isnt it obvious? Its because I am you.

There was someone with my face.

Why.

You seem confused,, but you wanted it? I was born because thats what you wanted.

What does that mean? What are you talking about?

We looked exactly alike.

He is kind huh?

What?

He is isnt he? He keeps a selfish and Naive woman like you beside him.

The me said that will a smile, but I dont understand the meaning behind that smile.

Its good huh? That you met him properly?

Met him properly? What do you mean?

Oh? What are you going to fall in love? You know that the mirror revealed the deepest wishes of those who looked. Thats why you looked right?

I..

So you found him right? A strong man who wont give up even if hes hurt?

I dont know what youre saying!

But you know that you meeting him isnt a coincidence right? That youre using him.

Using?

I dont understand what the other me was saying, but I felt like I knew.

He can easily do what you cant. He was hurt from the beginning so he will do whatever it takes to fulfill your wishes. He will do whatever it takes to get rid of your pain because thats the kind of charm you have. Hes already infatuated with you, and you know it.

I dont understand

You do understand!

The other me interrupted.

I told you didnt I?

Thats what you wanted.

.what.

After you looked in the mirror. No, you wanted it before you looked.

What is

Too kill her.

She interrupted me again.

Did you forget? For you who wants someone to die more than anything, to tell him not to kill..

Wait who, who is it that I want to kill?

I heard the sound of water behind me and tried to turn and look but.

You dont have to look. You dont have to remember yet.

I just stared at myself without turning around.

But.

I feel like I need to turn around and look right now.

You dont have to look. Thats why you have me. So you dont have to remember. Everything is work out.

Work out? What?

I know everything that you want now.

I blinked at those words and the forest disappeared. I was surrounded by darkness. No one was around me but I heard a voice.

Ok? We will always be together. I have always been watching over you.

Who?.

I heard a nostalgic voice and tears began to pour out of my eyes.

Why?

I dont know.

Whos voice was this?

Toa.

I heard it calling me, but ..what?

This?

Nostalgia and sadness, but what I felt next was.

I want to kill.

Bloodlust.

I want to killI have to kill her.

But I dont know why, I dont even know who. All I know is that I want to kill. And then I fell unconscious. The next time I opened my eyes I saw a ceiling.

Where?

I knew it had been a dream, I sat up to see Nem and Sufilia in there beds but, his was empty again.

Hhhhhh.

I remember the dream clearly.

But I began to stop thinking about it, as if someone was guiding me. I know I questioned why, but not for long.

Then I got out of bed and left the room, just like usual.

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