Chapter 221: Sea of Consciousness

I’m in a dark, warm, and cozy place that I quickly recognize as my own consciousness.

“I’m here again…” I murmur as I lie in a warm, viscous black liquid.

[Yes…you’re here again, but it’s your own fault]

(Y-Yes…y-you didn’t need to fight with L-Lilith)

I hear two different voices and quickly look in their direction, seeing my monstrous side as expected, but also seeing my “child” version.

“Didn’t I devour you?” I question with doubt.

(Y-Yes…b-but you accepted me…a-and then I came back)

“Why am I here?” I’m not sure why I’ve returned to this place.

[You lost control, your body is currently killing and devouring everything it finds in the ocean to regain the lost mana]

“I see…” It was expected that I could lose control again.

“Do you know what happened to Lilith?” I’m curious if she survived the [Gate of Hell] since this is easily one of my strongest spells.

[Yes, I know, she’s alive, but she’s also out of control, so she’s been killing and devouring everything in the ocean just like you, but she’s severely injured, so she’s quite limited]

“…” I’m glad she got out alive, I didn’t want to kill her, I just wasn’t thinking straight.

[Do you have any idea of the damage you’ve caused?]

“…No, I’ve never used this spell before, I didn’t know it would consume all my mana.” I respond honestly, the results were different than I expected.

[An entire continent…your spell reached the area of a large continent on Earth, you caused a change in the planet’s sea levels, creating a visible hole from space]

[A giant hole in the ocean that created a massive whirlpool due to the missing water, earthquakes, volcanic eruptions, you basically messed up the entire planet’s climate]

[Do you realize you could have screwed up the planet? You shouldn’t use a spell like that without caution, lucky that Delphina already knew about it since we were in the ocean]

[She quickly returned all the removed water, stabilizing everything shortly after with magic, she also went after Lilith and will probably come back later to beat you until you wake up]

“…” I sigh, this was unexpected, but I also didn’t know this spell was so powerful, I just thought it would cause major damage to the area we were in, not that it would open a hole the size of a continent.

’That means Lilith’s strength is at the continental level…’ Lilith is also overly strong.

[You’re so clueless sometimes, seriously, you should try to be more responsible]

“…Responsible? Like you? who can control my body and even help me, but doesn’t because you’re too lazy to keep me asking for help?” I remember this little conversation my monstrous side had with Grimm.

“You sold me for a little blood!” She let Grimm play with me just because it wasn’t dangerous.

(Y-You d-did that?)

The little girl asks, looking incredulously at my monstrous side.

“Cutie, come here, don’t stay near that manipulative cow who sells other people’s bodies for blood.”

{!!!…If I’m a manipulative cow, you are too!}

“Huh, you’re talking too much! You sold me to that necrophilic psychopath! Things could have gotten really bad, it was lucky I woke up early enough to avoid problems.”

The little girl runs to me since I asked her to.

“Besides, if Delphina solved the problem, then it’s all good, it wasn’t my fault for being irresponsible.”

[Dodge the blame as much as you want, but you almost screwed everything up, it looks like gaining a little bit of chest made your head hit space! You selfish bitch!!]

[And it’s thanks to Grimm’s mana that you already have the adolescent form, if not you’d still be a child in the next few days, you can really be such an asshole sometimes]

[How can you be more irresponsible than me, who is your monstrous side? One day all this is going to come back to you like an unstoppable, unidentifiable object]

“…Okay, okay, you’re right about me not being as responsible…but the fight with Lilith was necessary, I felt that, I needed to prove myself superior to Lilith.”

“Something in me was screaming for me to prove I’m superior to Lilith, and apparently Lilith also felt that, since she accepted the fight and seemed very eager for it.”

(B-But you almost killed each other, t-that’s bad, Lilith is an ally)

My little girl version who approached me speaks with insecurity.

“Tsk, I hope none of you appear anymore, know that 3 of us in this consciousness space is already too much!” I say for them to hear, the little girl trembles a little in fear as if afraid of being expelled.

While my monstrous self looks at me with disdain, as if I had said something absurd.

[You only exist because you’re like a damn schizophrenic who can’t get over the past! If you weren’t so insecure and had grown up in the past, this little thing would never have emerged]

[As for me…well, I’d emerge regardless, so that part isn’t really your fault, but whatever, if another one of us appears, it’ll be 100% your fault]

[And I wouldn’t be surprised if another one of us emerges when your mind is a mess of lust, revenge, hatred, a desire to destroy, and obsessive love, in fact, I’ll even bet that the next one to emerge is probably a high-level yandere maniac]

“Was that a premonition?” Very specific for my taste.

[I don’t know? I can’t know, if you weren’t so crazy, nothing would happen]

“…”

[Look on the bright side, now you can commit Selfcest]

My monstrous side speaks in a rather lustful way.

“…Isn’t that extremely narcissistic?” Having sex with oneself is literally the greatest definition of self-love and narcissism.

[SHUT UP! There’s no sex here! I’m full of dissatisfaction! And when I tried to rape this cute thing on your side, she ran away from me because she’s fucking fast!]

I look at my little version, who, upon hearing this, hides behind my back.

(Y-You were trying to rape me?! H-How horrible!)

[Wait, you didn’t know? Why the hell did you run from me if you didn’t know?]

(…)

“Hahahaha” This is kind of funny, I’d like to know how they live in here, but there’s no reason for me to spend too much time in here.

“Okay, I’ll have sex with you, but only if you help me, since now I know you’re like a parallel consciousness, you could regulate my magic, right?”

“I’d love for the magic of my tail and Angelic Aureola to be adjusted, those two parts are full of magic, but I always end up never using them, and in general, whenever I’m supposed to use them, I end up forgetting.”

“You could provide it to me automatically when I need it, like an automatic magic valve, right?”

[A trade…I never thought of that, it might not be so bad to work a little if it’s to have sex, my dissatisfaction is already exploding, you know how terrible it is to just watch you having fun?]

[It’s frustrating, my pussy tightens in need, my body gets hot and my thinking abilities get a little hazy, even my tail gets excited, but getting pleasure from it doesn’t even compare to what I can get from sex]

[And worst of all, I’m constantly like this since you’re constantly masturbating before going to sleep, your lust is something even succubi would be envious of!]

“Okay, okay, maybe I have a problem with lust, but it’s not like I’m a nymphomaniac who needs sex every day! Don’t exaggerate so much… it’s just a small hobby…”

[Normally, no one turns masturbation into a small hobby…you know what, forget it, anyway, that little thing appeared shortly after you devoured her and left]

“…” I look at my “child” version, she’s super cute.

“You’re really that desperate to try to rape this little thing, I mean she’s cute and all, but she doesn’t have that much sexual appeal.”

[Take off her clothes]

“…?” I hold the little girl who tried to run with my tail as a super reflex and squeeze tightly so the tail doesn’t slip.

“…” With the other hand and my tail, I tear off her clothes.

“Damn…”

[See? She’s fucking hot underneath the clothes, it’s like it’s you, but shrunken and wearing cute clothes to hide the breasts and curves, so she’s not really a child]

[She’s just small, do you think I’d be excited by a child? We’re not that depraved, children have no sexual appeal to me, I prefer them as a snack or something like that]

’Devouring children is not much better than raping them…’ I think about this as I release the little one, who quickly disappears into the ground.

[I heard that! Everything you think, we all know! Besides, my tastes are your tastes, don’t try to pretend to be the good one!]

“Okay, just try not to make a mess if you try to rape Tiny Pandora.”

[Tiny Pandora? Is that what you’re going to call her? So you’re Pandora, I’m the monster version of Pandora, and that’s Tiny Pandora? I don’t think that’s the best way to name the others]

[But it’s okay, it didn’t turn out bad, and about raping Tiny Pandora…it’s something difficult, she’s very fast, I don’t know why, but she can disappear into the sea of consciousness as if she’s diving]

[Maybe it’s because she emerged from a point where she was good at hiding, so she ended up getting good at hiding]

[But leaving that…]

My entire consciousness shakes as I feel pain.

“W-What the hell? What happened? My head hurts!”

[Delphina is beating you, it seems she’s already taken care of Lilith, and now she’s affectionately pummeling you, considering that she could kill you with one attack, she’s just trying to wake you up]

“It could be less painful…it seems our time here is limited.” I say, preparing to be forcefully awakened.

[I’m going to fill your guts with semen until it comes out your ass]

“W-What? W-Why the threat!?” She suddenly says this.

[It’s not a threat, I’m just saying that’s the payment for helping you, the next time you come here I’m going to fuck you until your consciousness turns into spaghetti, and also remember what you did to Elena, I want to test that too]

“As if I’m going to let you!” There’s no way I’m going to let her stuff her tail in my mouth and have it come out my ass just for her own satisfaction.

[And how do you plan to resist? Unlike me, you have limited movements in here]

“…”

[Don’t worry, I plan to do it only once, just out of curiosity, I want to see what you felt when you had your whole tail inside Elena’s body, and I want to feel how your whole body tries to squeeze me]

“I can’t believe I’m like this…” I look at her with strangeness, the worst part is that she’s right, I did that to Elena.

[Maybe you’ll like it? Think about tentacle monsters, they do that and it’s pleasurable, and besides, Elena in the memories seemed to really enjoy it, anyway, I bet it won’t be that bad]

“…Haaa…At least my body is 100% clean, so it won’t be disgusting…”

[That’s right! Good that you accepted!]

My monstrous self says excitedly while my body shivers, maybe this is karma for having done such a thing to Elena by force, but I’m always willing to try something new.

It can’t be that bad.

“I think I’m waking up, so I’ll just close my eyes and be quiet.”

[Okay, I’ll hunt for Tiny Pandora and try to ask for sex, maybe she’ll accept? She’s also part of us, so she must have a lot of repressed lust]

[And don’t worry too much, I want to test everything you’ve already done, so after that I’ll want normal sex, then I’ll want sex where you dominate me, and I’ll also want sex where we caress each other’s angelic aureola!]

I don’t respond to that, I just close my eyes and enjoy the comfort of this warm, viscous black liquid I’m lying in.

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