Chapter 446: Upgrades

A week has passed since Pandora Yandere played with Tsukuyomi. I used that time to take care of various things. First, I dealt with Amiya in the prison; she’s in there with those two white dragon girls who serve her.

I thought about releasing her… and ended up deciding that keeping her locked up was enough already, since I’m not in the mood to waste time on her. I can always punish her later for fighting against me, so I released her and gave her a room in the castle, where she locked herself away, afraid of me.

As for Tsukuyomi, she recovered after about three days. However, now whenever she looks at me, she never meets my eyes. She treats everyone else normally and seems fine, acting as she always does, but whenever she’s near me, she never looks into my eyes.

She doesn’t talk much with me either. It seems that after what happened to her in that place, she decided not to interact with me. Perhaps it’s also partly out of shame for having lost, since when Pandora Yandere allowed her to speak, the first thing she did was give up the fight.

At least she’s okay. It would be annoying to have to take care of another broken girl. For me, Zephyra is already more than enough. Unfortunately, she hasn’t made much progress.

First, since I’ll be busy, I have to take care of her feeding. She still can’t use utensils or chew food, but she can already drink liquids, so currently all of Zephyra’s food is liquid.

Although this created another problem… whenever Zephyra eats anything that isn’t my semen, she vomits everything back up. It seems her body is rejecting anything that isn’t what she ate during those months.

But this is easy to fix! I spent several hours working and masturbating to fill several jars, and I gave some of the jars to Zephyra and some to the kitchen.

The kitchen must mix my semen into the food and turn the food into liquid. That way, Zephyra’s body will slowly accept the food while she relearns how to eat.

It was hard work to drain so much semen from my tail in such a short time, but I managed to get enough semen for a year’s worth of food, which should be enough time for Zephyra to learn to eat.

Besides, even without food, Zephyra won’t die, since she can’t die as long as I’m alive. So, when this semen runs out, if I’m not here, she’ll be forced to eat something.

I’m also trying to feed Zephyra from the jars of semen instead of directly from my tail. In that sense, it was easier because she can put the liquid from the jar into her mouth and swallow it.

This shows that she doesn’t necessarily need to be fed directly from my tail; she just needs her nourishment to have come from my tail at some point, which is helping her learn to eat.

What remains the biggest problem is the fact that she can’t stand being near other people. She cries, becomes desperate, or enters a state of paralysis near maids or anyone else, unless it’s under my direct order where I’ve hurt her first to make her obey.

Which is frustrating because she doesn’t even try to bathe, forcing me to bathe her every day. In that cave, my semen kind of counted as a bath, because her body was always clean of dust or any smell other than my semen.

So she was constantly clean inside my fluids. So much so that she became more beautiful from being soaked in my semen, which was good for her skin! But out here, she needs to bathe! But she no longer knows how!

It’s so… stupid. It’s literally like taking care of a child. Furthermore, the only person she doesn’t complain about entering here is Lycoris, but she clearly doesn’t like it either. Whenever my daughter is here alone with her, when I come to pick Lycoris up, she has some injury.

When I’m here, Zephyra doesn’t do anything. I’m not stupid; it’s obvious that Zephyra is hurting her. Not excessively, but clearly in a problematic way because Lycoris is a baby, even if she looks like a child.

And I can’t punish Zephyra, who is traumatized, but I also can’t understand Zephyra’s anger towards Lycoris. I’ve heard of postpartum depression, but I don’t know how it works.

I can only deduce that Zephyra might have it, right? Since she clearly hurts her daughter when they’re alone.

But I can’t keep Lycoris away from Zephyra, because Lycoris is of my race, meaning she needs the necessary food for growth.

As a newborn, she needs large amounts of food and nutrients, and Zephyra’s milk is the best food, because breast milk is made from the nutrients in the woman’s body.

And all Zephyra ate for months was my semen and magic, making Zephyra’s milk extremely nutritious and full of mana. In short, 100 ml of Zephyra’s milk is equivalent to over 10,000 kilograms of meat.

And between giving 100 ml of milk or 10,000 kilograms of meat to Lycoris, the answer is obviously that the milk is better.

It’s even kind of absurd, but it’s also logical, because Zephyra’s milk is largely composed of things that came from my body, and my flesh is extremely nutritious and full of magic, showing that I’m also extremely nutritious as food, not that this makes me happy.

Now I’m here with Zephyra, who is feeding Lycoris with milk. I watch Lycoris closely, noticing how Lycoris doesn’t suck vigorously; she just drinks the milk fearfully, as if she’s going to be pushed away.

’It’s so different from Azazel and Eclipsya…’ I’ve seen both of them nursing from their mothers, and they both drank the milk vigorously, while Lycoris drinks as if she doesn’t dare to take too much.

’This is bad for her growth…’ When Lycoris and I were both drinking Zephyra’s milk in that cave, Lycoris drank vigorously, so this change now is unnatural.

“…” I give Zephyra a sharp look, and she guiltily looks away. She knows that I know what she’s doing.

’Damn it… punishing Zephyra for this is wrong when it’s my fault… but I also can’t let my daughter go hungry…’ If I had milk, I’d give it to Lycoris, but unfortunately, I don’t.

“Zephyra, I’m going to have to leave… I’m planning to go far away and I don’t know when I’ll be back for a while… I can only give you two more weeks… you need to handle feeding and bathing by yourself,” I say, and she looks like she’s about to cry.

’I have to go release my older sister…’ In the fight against Tsukuyomi, I realized my arm was hindering my use of magic and strong movements against her. Maybe my older sister can heal me?

“O-Okay… I-I’ll manage…” Zephyra says nervously.

“I know you will… yes… you will…” Fortunately, Zephyra isn’t 100% alone. Zephyra still has Achlys in her shadow, and Achlys is always watching. That’s why I gave orders to Achlys that she must feed and bathe Zephyra if it comes to an unpleasant extreme.

For example, if Zephyra goes without bathing for 5 days, Achlys must forcibly bathe her. And if Zephyra goes 7 days without eating anything, Achlys must forcibly feed Zephyra with the jars of semen!

I even gave several jars to Achlys to hide within her shadow, all with preservation magic to last a long time, so I know that Zephyra will be well taken care of even without me.

“Zephyra, is there anything you want to do today?” I ask while Zephyra looks at Lycoris.

“Just the two of us.” When I say this, she brightens up, which really only proves that she doesn’t like our daughter being around.

“W-Well… c-could we… have an evening… t-together?”

’I should have expected that…’ It was obvious that would be her wish. Seems I expected too much, coming from her.

“Of course, my queen… Lycoris, come. Let’s go take care of your hydra; she needs to eat, doesn’t she?” I call Lycoris, who stops drinking Zephyra’s milk and runs over to me.

“Baaah!!!” she says excitedly. I look at Zephyra, observing the colors of her emotions.

’Disgust and hatred… directed at Lycoris…. I wonder how long it will take for Zephyra to start loving Lycoris…’ I pick Lycoris up in my arms.

“Zephyra, I have to go now, alright? Elena, Freya, Kaelith, and Calypso are returning with my army. They just finished sacking the humans, completely destroyed almost all the kingdoms, and even brought back several slaves, so I’ll need to deal with the logistics of that.”

“I should be back around 10 p.m. for our evening together,” I tell her. She nods her head and picks up a book. Recently, we’ve been having sex every night.

I’m testing how far love and pain can coexist in her mind… and I must say the result is surprising. Even if I choke her to a degree that would kill her if she could die, she moans with pleasure and blushes.

She really enjoys being hurt. I tested various degrees of pain and realized that no matter how much I hurt her, she feels pleasure from it as long as I hurt her “lovingly.”

Apparently, the criterion for her to feel pleasure or fear from the pain depends purely on my behavior, not on how much pain she’s feeling. If I speak loving words while hurting her, she feels pleasure.

But if she feels the pain comes from anger or punishment, then she feels the pain as she should; she cries, apologizes, and begs for forgiveness.

And of course, I like that… I’m not a hypocrite to say I don’t. I love seeing her like that, because I feel we’ve reached a new level of love and attachment where she can never escape from me… but it’s also frustrating that for it to be like this, she’s become almost a broken doll that I have to fix.

’Haaa… Pandora Yandere is odiously right… she’s not that much more terrible than I am… I’d say we’re almost tied…’ I hug Lycoris as I head outside.

’Eclypsia seemed to have noticed that Pandora Yandere was the one in control, though she didn’t treat her as a separate being; for her, it was still me, even if different… that’s good… at least I know Pandora Yandere didn’t lie…’ I decide to stop thinking about that! I have work! And soon I’ll save my older sister! I’m so excited to meet her.

“My dear little daughter, your Auntie will be here to meet you soon!!” I say to Lycoris, who looks at me confused with a silly, funny smile.

“What an adorable little creature you are.” I press my forehead against hers affectionately.

’She smells sweet… it reminds me of Zephyra’s scent… she also smells of milk… how delicious…’ I lick her forehead before pulling back with a smile.

“Now, sweetie, let’s go see your hydra?! We still have to choose a name for her too.” When I say this, Lycoris becomes thoughtful, and it’s cute because her tail starts wagging like a pendulum.

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