Chapter 43: Justification

Still without losing hope I analyzed the surroundings better To my left was the window to my right the girl who was the source of my despair.

With hopes and some expectation, I looked back looking for my school romance, but received only disappointment and betrayal of my expectations.

’Damn, what are you doing smiling at me? I’m not at all happy to have you around’.

Besides the disappointment I felt a chill for the person behind me. which unfortunately was, William, and next to him was Silvia. So I couldn’t have a diagonal romance either.

I didn’t have to look straight ahead because, pitifully, I had already seen that Ivan the fortress fucker was there. And next to him, someone he didn’t know.

And whom I named “Mob Four”, since he’s probably not someone important, and was likely to descend and change classrooms. I just hope the next person is a pretty girl.

Each seat was columns going up, so someone naturally imposing like Ivan didn’t interfere with my vision, but I was sorry to be surrounded by so much misfortune.

To distract myself a little from so much misfortune I took a better look around and there were many people I know from the memories of my alternate self, they were people who have a lot of potential to reach great heights in the future.

There were some missing, but eventually they will climb and reach this classroom, among those I could see too, there were several high ranking nobles and even some princes and princesses, as well as my unfortunate fiancé.

I was looking at my clone with desire, which was not at all welcome giving me an unpleasant feeling, I promised myself later to deal with it by eliminating it and make it look like it was an accident or natural causes.

’There were also many pretty girls with great potential, but of all places I had to get this place.’

’What were the chances? Damn it,’

I had to accept reality and accept that this person would be my companion on the side from now on.

The person next to me was a beauty. Her hair was a peculiar color—almost platinum white, like mine when I am Serafina. But upon closer look, it revealed a very faded shade of purple, a pale lilac with a subtle platinum sheen.

Depending on the intensity of the light, you could notice that detail, but from a distance it looked platinum white.

Her sharp eyes had a beautiful grayish silver color that seemed to have a metallic sheen to them.

They were beautiful and I was mesmerized for a moment as I looked at her from the corner of my eye, along with her long eyelashes they were mesmerizing.

She had a figure that, while not voluptuous, was not scanty either. It was a perfect balance.

But sadly this girl was in the warnings of my alternate self, and even higher in care than Eira and Silvia.

And as for why it’s a warning, it’s because for some reason she has a grudge and ill will towards Seraphina.

It was something I didn’t understand despite exploring Seraphina’s memories, I fail to understand the reason for that unjustified hatred.

From my alternate self’s memories, her grudge was present from the beginning and, although I searched the memories of the original Seraphina, I found nothing related.

Her unjustified hatred grew over time and, well, a lot of things happened.

’It was my fault for wishing only beauties to be in my harem.’ The person next to me was certainly a beauty and of a very high standard, but she was something unattainable.

Besides, there was something else that differentiated her from Silvia and Eira that were just a warning not to get too close to them.

My alternate self not only asks me through his memories to stay away, but also to eliminate her and take revenge for him.

There are many people on that list of people I must eliminate before it is too late and he is one of them.

That person next to me is someone who did something unforgivable to my alternate self and she stressed in her memories was someone I should Eliminate.

His feelings for this person were so strong that, even though it’s the first time I’ve seen her, murderous intentions that I didn’t know I had almost started to emerge as I recalled those memory fragments of my alternate self, but I was able to control myself.

’I must not let my alternate self’s feelings dominate my decisions.’ Certainly, my alternate self hated a lot for this girl, but the problem is that I don’t understand why.

Nowhere in the memory fragments did I find the causes I could only see how she harassed me several times, but that was it.

While they did not get along, it should be no worse than with Eira, but the intent and willingness to kill was real.

Years ago, when I was organizing my memories, I realized this anomaly, as the other targets to be eliminated had an obvious and plausible reason why they deserved death, but she did not, there was not enough justification.

I set out to investigate this person and understand the reason for such inconsistency, between feelings and memories, but I forgot about it.

I didn’t see it as a priority since I had to train and investigate other things like legacies and other things in this world and I kept putting it off.

I think I completely forgot about it when by pure ’coincidence’ I found some of Elena’s panties in her room, inside her drawer which happened to be open.

I was just checking the style and stuff for future reference and before I knew it, everything was dark.

’Come to think of it, wouldn’t that be the reason why there are so many empty memories in my head?’

I thought it was a plausible reason, but I also immediately denied it because of how silly it sounded to lose important information that way, so I decided to ignore the possibility.

To begin with, my alternate self arranged for me not to forget anything he transferred to me, and I wanted to believe in that.

I stuck with my other theories of information gaps for the sake of my mental health.

’Losing memory by smelling a pair of panties…I mean by looking up future references, impossible. Probably my alternate self seal them or omitted them…yes definitely that must be it’.

Convincing myself, I moved on with my life.

On the other hand, I now began to regret putting off that research. I was sure that with the authority of my family and at the right time I would have succeeded.

Now that I entered the academy, it is too late. My alternate self tried to investigate her and find the source of her hatred, but failed.

It seems as if after entering the academy she erased all her history and just walked in.

It’s like my version of Chris that I made up out of thin air, but she did enter directly, which more or less leaves fewer options since it’s only something high ranking nobles can do.

Still, there are a lot of them and she may even be a illegitimate daughter Real or something. Reason why hiding her identity so well is important. Now I regret not having done it in time.

But well, putting aside my alternate self’s intentions for hating this woman so much, I know what her personality is like, so I’ll just ignore her and try to adjust to living with her next to my seat for a year.

Knowing her personality, it was hard to get her to address me first, so I figured it wasn’t such a hard thing to do. But…

“You’re the student Christian, right?”

“Y-yes, why?”

She suddenly spoke to me, something that was completely out of my expectations, so I reflexively and nervously responded.

’No wait, why are you addressing me first, ?

I was taken by surprise since I had planned not to have any interaction with this girl, at least not to initiate on my part, because at any moment she will be looking for trouble with my female version.

But, She did something I didn’t expect, she spoke to me first, she certainly had a melodious and beautiful voice.

Unfortunately, it was devoid of any sense of emotion.

But the important thing is that she was talking to me. She was undoubtedly calling me Christian and that is my actual name so she undoubtedly directed her word towards me…undoubtedly that happened right?…but as if to confirm my thoughts she spoke to me again.

“You’re a servant of the Silvercrest family aren’t you”

’So that’s it. You want to start by attacking the subordinate of the one you hate since you’re conveniently close. I won’t let you.’

Once I understood that, if she talked to me, I regained my wits and more or less understood her intentions.

“In fact, I am a servant of House Silvercrest, do you have a problem with that?”

Clearly and simply I spoke to her , I was totally defensive, I knew she wanted to annoy me somehow because I am seraphina’s servant, initiating the unwarranted harassment, with me being in her grasp.

But I won’t let her trample on me out of unjustified hatred,… although it would be nice if she really trampled on me…. ’No, bastard, react. This is no time to ramble.’

I waited for heranswer. I already knew that, like Eira, she was problematic, and even worse than Eira, who taught me a lesson, so I didn’t even think about integrating her into my harem and I wanted to avoid her as much as possible.

“Be mine.”

“of course I will.”

’Come to think of it, maybe she wasn’t a bad person. Maybe my alternate self got a little confused because he was already senile. ’

This beautiful girl can’t be bad. She’s perfectly fit to be in my harem.

’ah?, her hatred for Seraphina?’ ’That, what does it matter, I’m Christian right now, that hatred can be fixed.

’That my alternate self wanted her dead?’ Nothing happened, I don’t remember anything to justify that hatred.

’Her personality…?’. it’s not that bad if you’re not her target of hatred.

The more I thought about things I realized, she’s an excellent prospect.

I thought all this while justifying the answer I instantly gave.

’It’s true, there was no problem.’

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