Chapter 69: Shameful secret

At that moment, we spoke at the same time, but it seems that we were not as aligned as I thought. Honestly, I wanted to know more about her and why her sudden change.

I didn’t think the massage was enough for her personality to come through so strongly, so I wanted to get to know her better, beyond what my alternate self, who could never get beyond being a “good student,” knew.

But she seemed to misunderstand me and started saying nonsensical things like what we were doing was wrong, which was absolutely nonsensical.

I have to be quick and I can’t lose what I have built, and before damaging ideas about morals and rightness could form I began to speak.

“What do you mean, big sister. What we’ve created is beautiful, it’s not something that can be considered immoral, so don’t overthink it.”

“But…”

“Big sister, don’t you want to keep doing it anymore?”

At that moment, I decided to act like a pitiful child who is denied something she wants.

“Ugh…I mean, it’s wrong…but…uhmm.”

“…”

I put on my best pitiful face. while she looked like she was struggling with herself, until finally….

“yeah, we can still do it.”

she ended up agreeing. So the next thing was what I had come for.

“Big sister, I just want to know more about you. That’s what I wanted to talk about.”

Well, I wanted to know more, like why she started acting like that from one day to the next and what she thought about what happened the first day.

I wanted to understand if that was his real personality or something created, because he’s too perfect and fits my fetishes so well that it feels a little unreal.

Also, sometimes she acts like things don’t go as planned, so I wanted to understand her better and have a solid relationship where I could trust her with a lot of things about myself.

at some point I will tell her the truth, about me being Seraphina and so on, but for now it is important that we get to know each other better.

my alternate self made it very clear in her memories that she will not think of this as a game and that everyone has experiences and thoughts of their own, so it is wrong to categorize her and look at it as if it were a game of heroine capture.

I certainly won’t deny that it’s in me a little bit that mentality as I tend to do it unconsciously from time to time.

I mean all I know and understand about the subject is from games, novels and other things I have no real experience in relationships, and I tend to think that way by default from time to time,

now that someone gave me a reality check and such a strong lecture, even if it was through memories, it makes me reconsider and act differently.

To my alternative self no one prevented him from thinking of gathering a harem as a kind of game, and because of that he suffered a lot, so I always try to understand and comprehend my future lovers, as I am doing with Astrid.

So we started talking about many things, and I understood a lot about her.

In the end, we had a lot to talk about. Mostly we talked about her, and I told her some things about me, things I had done as Seraphina, of course, making it sound like I was doing it as a Chris: how I trained, experiences I had, my battles with monsters and more.

The more I learned about her the more I liked her, she felt more human than how I remembered her being a ’perfect instructor’.

Listening to her story for a while, I realized that it wasn’t just marital problems, as the memories in my head said.

Well, my alternate self didn’t know her beyond being an instructor, so it’s understandable that I knew little about her.

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We kept talking but she suddenly brought up a topic that caught me off guard.

“Honey, I don’t know if you know this, but I feel stronger since yesterday. In fact, I feel stronger since we finished doing it just now.”

’Shit.’

at that moment I remembered one of the things I forgot.

His only high stat was mana, which he increased to have four metamorphoses somehow, so obviously he noticed this change even though he has no status window, his strength and other stats must have taken a big jump.

And honestly I had forgotten yesterday when we started doing it out of the blue. In fact, I only realized, that I didn’t deactivate the skill when we had finished and I saw my status and today I inadvertently forgot it again, by this point it was too late, there was no excuse.

I mean, it’s his fault for making it so I couldn’t think straight by showing me that…haaaah.

’Well, I have no choice but to let go of the soup.’

Would be a waste. Come to think of it, my mana could increase quickly and she would get stronger. It’s a win-win, and the first step in a healthy relationship is trust.

I felt I could, at the very least, trust her with what this ability did, so I told her about it… , but… I didn’t quite think through what it might cause, when I finish telling you ….

“Uhmm… um…honey, can I ask you something?”

“What’s wrong?”

she suddenly looked thoughtful about something and wanted to ask me something, I started to feel a bad feeling, and as if to confirm that he was right he said

“Ummm… honey… couldn’t it be that you’re sponsored by an Evil God?”

’Oh, fuck,’

I hadn’t thought of that. Certainly, an ability that grows when you have relations, and one that controls your fertility, isn’t something the gods this realm usually follows normally give out.

I mean, one might think I was born with one of these abilities, but two is already more than a coincidence, and she certainly wasn’t wrong. The legacy of lust was linked with the gods that are called evil here.

but I had the perfect countermeasure, though I honestly didn’t want to say it, even to Elena I haven’t told this, at least not directly.

But I didn’t want him to start doubting me, so I had to show him one of my biggest and most shameful secrets….

“Wait, Astrid, you’re totally wrong. Look, this is the stigma of the goddess of purity; there’s no way she has a blessing from an evil god.”

The conversation went off the rails, but I had to prove my innocence, so I stimulated the blessing, this time with the intention of showing a stigma that all blessed people have somewhere on their body.

curiously for me it’s below my belly button, which I didn’t find at all amusing that the goddess put it there. not to mention its shape, which makes me very embarrassed.

’What goddess of purity? That’s pure garbage! Or else why would her stigma have that fucking questionable shape?’

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After she inspected it and noticed that it was real, she was impressed that I had the blessing of one of the most important goddesses of the kingdom, leaving aside the god of light who is the main god of .

But I asked her to keep it a secret, besides I did not hesitate to put all the blame on the goddess saying that she was the origin of those unholy abilities.

Astrid did not hesitate, for no mortal in this world would dare question a god’s intentions..

Some unexpected things happened because of our conversation, but eventually we talked about things other than me, like runes, a common interest that I am developing a taste for.

I enjoyed spending time with her and feel that eventually I could be more honest, and when the time comes, I will propose to her to join my harem as a third member. For now, I could barely convince her to at least be secret lovers.

Finally, as I left, I promised her that we would continue tomorrow, so I left. I had a promise to keep to Lys, even though it was still an hour away. It didn’t matter if she was early, maybe then we could have time alone before William and Silvia arrived.

’oh! come to think of it’

But suddenly a thought came into my head, as the instructor’s office is not very far from the place indicated in the letter, so, just out of curiosity, I wandered a little and went to see, as I had a little time to spare.

The place was well hidden and I had to go a long way around the building to get there. So I walked around for a while and conjured up something I had practiced on my own. Since with those sisters you never know what will happen, so I had to act cautiously.

“Obscuro lumen, te velare in nocte”

So I prepared myself and began to chant a magic spell. Following my will, a magic circle made up of some runes made of black mana formed at my feet, and finally went up to my head, piercing me from the bottom up.

It was an occultation spell based on the dark element. I’m not very good at dark magic and I’m only a few days old with an affinity for this element, so I’m a bit slow, even for simple spells like this, but in the end it worked.

I was able to walk hiding my perception and figure in the shadows of the one of the buildings.

I reached the place and saw that there was a bench where only Selene was lying down, sleeping with no trace of her sister Eira nearby.

I made sure to observe well, as there were some bushes nearby and she could be hiding.

I approached slowly and cautiously, even cast a search spell for earth and wind, elements I’m not good at and have no affinity for, but in the end, I couldn’t detect anyone but Selene.

I just came out of curiosity, because I was bored, and actually the simplicity of the letter intrigued me, if that was their goal they achieved it, but there was nothing, so I just thought I’d leave.

However, I could not leave this girl here sleeping out in the open. Unlike Eira, I have nothing against her, beyond knowing that it is impossible to add her to my harem unless Eira joins as well, which is no longer a possibility in the slightest.

So, in the end, I’ll simply see what she wants and then leave, so she won’t wait for me here in vain. I moved it and shook it, but no matter how much I shook it, it wouldn’t wake up at all.

“fuck, how heavy is her sleep?”

She simply looked like a corpse. If it wasn’t because I could hear her breathing, I would think she wasn’t alive.

I kept shaking her for a full minute until I finally gave up and thought about leaving her there, but then I remembered information about her that I could use.

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