Chapter 60: Filling the Void

She knew it. It wasn’t like an instructor to ask for more, yet she wanted more. She had never felt this way before and wanted to keep feeling that wonderful sensation, so she tried to guide the conversation, thinking about how to ask for more without sounding desperate.

Surprisingly, the student seemed to say everything she wanted to hear, and helped get them to the point where she could feel that wonderful sensation again.

She was considering bending the rules a bit, something she would never do, to ask him for a massage now and then in exchange for points.

with that mentality, she looked forward to the next phase of the massage.

Although she was embarrassed to take off her robe, as she was wearing tight clothes underneath.

She knew that from a very young age she had strongly attracted the attention of men, and so that it wouldn’t interfere with her teachings, she had started wearing a large robe, even if it was uncomfortable.

She did not want it to interfere with her teachings. But it was unavoidable if she wanted to feel that pleasant massage.

As a precaution, she looked at the student’s crotch for any reaction, as she thought this might somehow provoke him.

Luckily, there was no reaction, which left her more reassured and confident of his intentions, which seemed truly pure.

After leaving her a small warning again, as a formality, although she wanted the massage, she had to act as an instructor properly.

Although she wanted that massage and that strange sensation that made her feel good.

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Despite her age, she had only had one sexual experience in her life, and that was with the Duke. That night she felt only pain and discomfort, an experience she did not wish to repeat. Fortunately, the Duke could no longer do anything about it.

Despite being a mature woman, she had almost no experience in the matter, so it was too late when she realized that something was wrong.

She did not know at what point, but her mind was clouded and she could not form coherent thoughts, and she could not stop what happened.

Now, fortunately or unfortunately, she remembered clearly what had happened during her massage session, and it was certainly the best she had ever felt in her life.

Astrid had always believed that the greatest pleasure was teaching, but the night before she discovered that it could feel good that way too.

She was inexperienced, but not ignorant. She clearly knew that many boundaries had been crossed last night and that as an instructor she should not have allowed it to happen.

Many boundaries were crossed that she could stop, but she simply let it flow to the point where she couldn’t even think about anything, she didn’t muster enough will to stop it. At some point it was already impossible to stop, and she had allowed it to get to that point.

Those thoughts were what now fueled her agony about what she should do. As an instructor, she has to accept that it is partly her fault for not stopping it, but she also had to punish the student who took advantage of her.

That would be the right thing to do, but she was also having an internal battle as she wanted to feel good again. She thought that if she pretended not to remember, things might repeat themselves, but in the end she ended up having trouble with both decisions.

In the end, her thoughts were wandering and she ended up thinking that, despite being older, she was dominated by that student, which was something her pride as an instructor and someone older could not allow.

She had many rambling thoughts, finally she gathered enough wits to go to her lodging, which, by the way, was a place prepared especially for the academy instructors.

She prepared and when it was time to get dressed, for some reason she didn’t understand, she thought long and hard, seriously. Now that she thought about it, yesterday she had that embarrassing thong, which the student could get to see.

Honestly, she only wore it because of how comfortable they were, since she was voluptuous and felt more comfortable in them. On the other hand, she also had regular underwear, so she put them on. She also looked carefully at what else to wear.

Usually she didn’t mind since it was ultimately covered by the robe, but with her thoughts still confused she didn’t know what to wear, in the end she decided it was better not to think too much about it and went for something normal.

After breakfast, he went to teach his classes, which were one of his great pleasures. Today was supposed to be the specialized classes and she had to attend to the kids who are wizards and those who wanted to learn runes.

With the clear desire that she was going down the magical warrior path, it was obvious that she would eventually take his class and, fearing she would run into him and not know how to act, she was a little hesitant to enter the classroom.

Luckily, apparently, he wasn’t in her first class, so she waited a little impatiently for her second class either.

Luckily, he didn’t show up for the rest of the classes, but she couldn’t get it out of her head until she finally finished teaching her two classes, which was it for today.

He couldn’t get the events and everything that happened yesterday out of his head, so he had a lot of mistakes in his classes because he couldn’t concentrate.

Luckily, so she had the afternoon free. When he got out of teaching his classes, he felt that time was running out, as he would have to see him when the afternoon.

After eating lunch and thinking for a long time, she realized that she had a great lack of knowledge on the subject, so she decided to do some quick research before making a decision.

Maybe it was just prejudice on her part and she overthought it. Maybe silvercrest massages were like that and she misunderstood, or she was just the one who thought it was a bad thing.

She didn’t know how much of her common sense was right due to her lack of knowledge, so she went to research. She went through many libraries and quickly read many books.

Thanks to her skills and metamorphosis, she was extremely fast, but she didn’t find much about what she wanted to know specifically.

As she walked through the capital, she entered a slightly more secluded place, and there she found a peculiar bookstore, but anything would do. Thinking he might find something, he entered it, and that’s where he found the knowledge he was looking for.

Certainly, the books looked like things of fiction, but they talked about what sexual relationships were like, vivid descriptions and different scenarios, exactly what he needed. Basically, she had walked into an erotic novel store.

Luckily, knowing that the subject matter she was looking for was sensitive, she had put on a device that reduced its presence, so she was able to read at her leisure and quickly fill herself with a lot of information.

As she read, she compared herself and Christian in the scenes, and a strong desire began to rise up in her that she didn’t know she had. By the time she finished reading some of them, she felt she needed a massage from Christian again, but she couldn’t let him be in control again.

As someone older or as an instructor, she needed to be in control. Luckily, there were also several reference books in the store that she could read to make a note of what she would do.

Although she was a little nervous, she believed, or rather convinced herself, that this was the right path.

As for the decision to act as a proper instructor and punish Christian and herself for what she had been through, it had long ago ceased to be an option. The more she read, the more her desire grew even more and more possibilities and a new world would be made towards her.

Honestly, as she read and imagined, she couldn’t help but remember that feeling and wanted to feel it again. She felt that all this time she had missed that part of the world.

Over the years, she had heard a little about that subject from her friends or from the mothers of the children she used to teach, when she was a private instructor, and even now sometimes with her students, whom she sometimes caught talking about it secretly in a corner of the academy.

But she never seriously thought about the matter as her only experience was not a good one.

Now something in her awoke and she felt she wanted more, even if it went against her principles. Certainly, she had spent most of her life searching for what her value and usefulness was.

Always trying to fill the void in her, and she believed she did, but this too, turned her away from the pleasures of life and now she had tasted that extremely sweet poison in her difficult life.

She certainly believed that being a mother and instructor was the ultimate pleasure and sense of accomplishment, but now a new pleasure opened up before her and it was too sweet to simply ignore.

So she decided to make an exception, or so she told herself in order to overshadow the part of her that still said it was all wrong.

So she finished reading a lot of books that, if Christian could see their cover, she wouldn’t know what to think about it, since most of those books had SM/instructor/students on their covers, and possibly shouldn’t have been taken as a reference, but it was already spilled milk.

As she walked back, she got ready and bought a few things for the occasion, stopped by her lodgings and changed into something she thought would work for the situation.

She knew the time had come and now, with knowledge on the subject, she would not be easily led.

She believed Christian had simply gotten carried away and was inexperienced, as she couldn’t even insert him as she desperately wiggled her hips to find him (he was simply enjoying his buttocks).

so now it was her turn to guide him, feeding in a way her original pleasure of guiding students, mixed with the desire that was at its peak after reading so much reference material.

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When she saw him in front of her office, she immediately felt a tingling in her lower parts, like an instinctive reaction. Now she knew what that reaction was because of the books she had read.

The closer she got, the stronger that tingle became and she knew that her decision of what she was going to do was the right one. She could no longer be the instructor she was; she needed to truly taste this forbidden fruit.

She also saw that he seemed nervous, maybe a little shy about yesterday. The moment she saw him, something in her just clicked; and her last doubts were gone, something inside her awakened.

Whatever happened, he was better off inside his office, so she acted normally so as not to scare him and let him in as she normally would.

Now she was going to prove to him that she was an older woman and then entered the room behind him.

Click

Locking the door she saw Cristian turn and was surprised, her nervousness only made her even more excited, she didn’t know why, but she would find out, getting into the role she had planned, she began to approach him.

With that began a night she would never forget.

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