Chapter 72: Throatburn
The nameplate caught the light first.
CALLAHAN.
Polished. Smug. Sitting there like a warning label I’d ignored once already.
I stared at it longer than necessary, letting the glare burn into my eyes. Maybe if I focused hard enough, it would tell me how this ended. Whether I walked out with my people… or walked out alone, escorted, stripped of whatever illusion of safety we’d borrowed by stepping inside these walls.
I blinked slowly, grit still clinging to my eyes, lids heavy like they’d been glued shut and ripped open too soon. Sleep had been a rumor last night— something other people got. Not me. Not after Jane. Not after Peter. Not after realizing what I’d let Lila handle for me.
That thought alone made my jaw tighten.
Using Lila to fix things had felt efficient in the moment.
This morning, it felt like rot.
I leaned back in the chair anyway, arms loose, posture careless. If this was the part where we got escorted out at gunpoint, I wanted to look bored when it happened.
Sixty percent chance, by my estimate.
Good enough odds.
I was tired of this place already.
“Carter.”
The word snapped through the haze.
I looked up too fast, irritation flashing before I could bury it.
“Yes?”
I caught myself just before sir turned into fuck you.
Callahan stood behind his desk, hands planted like he was bracing against weather. His expression was tight—controlled, but strained at the seams. Pride under pressure.
“There was a meeting last night,” he said flatly. “After you left.”
I didn’t respond.
“Command staff. Security. Logistics. Medical.” His jaw tightened. “Everyone who had an opinion.”
“And?” I asked.
He inhaled through his nose.
“You were discussed at length,” he said. “Your behavior. Your… speech. The way you spoke to me.”
I raised an eyebrow. “You mean the part where I told you your compound has structural weaknesses?”
His eyes flickered.
“You undermined my authority,” he snapped. “In front of personnel. You implied this camp was unsafe.”
“I didn’t imply,” I said. “I explained.”
His fingers dug into the desk. It was evident on how badly he wanted to shut me up for good.
“Regardless,” he continued stiffly, “there was a vote.”
That caught my attention.
“A vote on what?” I asked.
“On whether you and your group should be removed from the camp,” he said. “Immediately.”
I let out a quiet laugh. “And?”
Callahan’s mouth thinned.
“It was close
,” he admitted. “Closer than I would’ve liked.”
I leaned back. “But?”
“But the final decision was to keep you here,” he said. “For now.”
“For now,” I echoed. “That’s comforting.”
He ignored that.
“You’ll have your firearms returned,” he said.
I blinked once.
“And that’s on our way out, right?” I asked. “Little goodbye gift?”
His eyes hardened. I noticed something flicker underneath.
“That’s what I wanted,” he said. “But I was overruled.”
That made me sit up.
“Overruled by who?” I asked.
“That’s not your concern,” he snapped. Then, after a pause: “You’ll be given your weapons back under supervision. On one condition.”
I tilted my head. “Here it comes.”
“You and your group will assist in an external food acquisition operation,” Callahan said. “Recon. Retrieval. Infected response.”
I smiled.
He noticed.
“We have less than a few weeks of food before rationing becomes unavoidable,” he continued. “Our soldiers are trained, but they lack… exposure. Experience.”
“Exposure,” I repeated. “You mean they’re scared.”
His jaw flexed.
“The last unit we sent out didn’t return,” he said. “Eight men. Armed. Disciplined.”
“And unprepared,” I said.
He slammed his palm on the desk.
“Don’t,” he warned.
I leaned back again, slower this time, crossing one leg over the other.
“So let me get this straight,” I said. “You voted on whether to throw us out. Decided you couldn’t afford to. And now you’re giving us our guns back so we can do the shit your soldiers won’t.”
His knuckles went white.
“You people need our help,” I added, gently twisting the knife.
“Stop playing games with me, boy,” he snapped.
I smiled wider.
Then waited.
Finally—finally—he said it.
“We need your experience,” Callahan said, voice tight. “You’ve survived outside the perimeter longer than any civilian group we’ve encountered. You understand the infected.”
“The infected aren’t animals,” I said. “That’s your mistake. That’s the thing you people don’t get.”
His eyes flickered.
“They learn,” I continued. “They test. They wait. You’re still fighting them like they rush and scream.”
Silence.
Then, quieter: “So what would you do?”
I met his eyes.
“When the time comes,” I said, “you’ll see.”
He folded his arms, frustration etched deep into his face.
“When do you plan to deploy?” I asked.
“As soon as possible,” he replied. “Ideally today. I understand your people may need time to—”
“It’s done,” I said.
That stopped him.
He stared at me. “You didn’t even consult them.”
“I don’t need to,” I said. “They’ll follow.”
Because I hadn’t lied to them.
Because I hadn’t hidden the cost.
Because when this goes wrong—and it will—it won’t be their blood on his hands.
It’ll be his.
I stood, chair scraping softly.
As I walked toward the door, I felt it clearly for the first time.
This wasn’t a negotiation.
It was conscription.
And Callahan hated that he’d just admitted who needed who more.
I had practically skipped my way back to the quarters.
The door creaked as I pushed it open.
I didn’t bother hiding the smile.
“We got our guns back.”
For half a second, no one moved.
Then Aubrey looked up sharply, eyes narrowing like she was waiting for the punchline. Cherie’s lips curved into a quiet, satisfied smile. Hale scratched at his beard and gave a single, approving nod—slow, thoughtful.
“Really, honey?” Lila said brightly.
She was on her feet in an instant, arms sliding around me, pressing herself close. Her kiss landed warm and deliberate against my cheek, just long enough to make a point.
I let my hand settle in her hair, fingers combing through it.
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Aubrey hesitate.
For a moment—just a moment—it looked like she was going to say something. Approval, maybe. Relief. Pride.
Then she saw Lila hugging me.
Her shoulders dipped. Her gaze dropped to the floor.
“But how?” Terri asked instead, voice tight. “Didn’t the commander basically say you insulted him to his face?”
“Oh, I did,” I said lightly. “Turns out he didn’t have the luxury of holding a grudge.”
I felt Lila lean into my side as I spoke, like she was anchoring herself there.
“They need our expertise,” I continued. “On the infected. For outside-the-wall operations.”
That did it.
Someone straightened sharply.
“We’re going out?” Cherie asked, eyes bright.
I nodded once.
“I’m putting together a small team.”
The room felt like it leaned in.
“Cherie. Aubrey. Hale,” I said, counting them off. “Be ready in a few hours. They haven’t given me an exact time yet.”
Hale grunted and immediately started thinking logistics. Cherie cracked her knuckles like she’d already made peace with it.
Aubrey didn’t react right away.
Lila slowly looked up at me.
She didn’t speak. She didn’t have to.
There was something quietly expectant in her eyes—something waiting to be chosen.
I took her gently by the wrist and pulled her a few steps aside, out of earshot.
By now, I knew how to handle things like this.
“I need you to stay here,” I said softly. “For our plan. Remember?”
Her expression changed instantly.
Not disappointment.
Relief.
Her face lit up, eyes shining as she nodded eagerly.
“Of course,” she said. “Whatever you need, my love.”
I smiled back, lowering my voice.
“Remember what I said.”
Her fingers tightened around mine for just a second longer than necessary.
“I always do,” she whispered.
When we rejoined the others, Hale was already sitting on a bench, tightening his boots, jacket laid out with methodical precision.
I scanned the room once more.
“Peter,” I said. “I’ll need you on this too.”
The air shifted.
A few heads turned.
Before Peter could even open his mouth—
“Why?”
Jane’s voice cut in smoothly, sharp as glass wrapped in velvet.
I grimaced internally.
She rose from where she’d been sitting, moving to Peter’s side, slipping an arm around his shoulders like a claim.
“You’re a sweetheart, Adrian,” she said, smiling at me. “But Petey would just slow you down.”
She leaned into him, pressing a kiss against his temple.
“He’s not really built for things like that,” she continued sweetly. “Are you, sweetie?”
Peter didn’t look at me.
Didn’t look at anyone.
He just nodded.
Small. Silent.
The room went subtly wrong after that. Eyes drifted away. Shoulders tensed. No one challenged her— not directly.
Was this guy serious…?
I swallowed.
So much for handling this quietly. So much for doing things under her nose.
I forced a nod, keeping my face neutral.
“Alright,” I said. “Then you stay.”
Jane smiled wider.
Peter didn’t.
As I turned away, something heavy settled in my chest.
This was already unraveling.
And we hadn’t even left the walls yet.
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- Chapter 173: When It Breaks
- Chapter 172: Say It Out Loud
- Chapter 171: Real small world, huh?
- Chapter 170: Couldn’t get enough of me, could you?
- Chapter 169: Don’t be a fool
- Chapter 168: Signal
- Chapter 167: Human or Not?
- Chapter 166: And then there was two
- Chapter 165: Final Warning
- Chapter 164: Livestock
- Chapter 163: Here’s the real welcome
- Chapter 162: The buzz that never stops
- Chapter 161: What Mrs. Graham said
- Chapter 160: The Quiet Game
- Chapter 159: Western Intake Sector Three
- Chapter 158: The Great Land of Maple Leaf
- Chapter 157: Just the way things go, I guess
- Chapter 156: I’m Not Who You Pretend I Am
- Chapter 155: Are you proud of yourself?
- Chapter 154: That could’ve gone better
- Chapter 153: Ready or not
- Chapter 152: Selective emphathy
- Chapter 151: Everyone hates Adrian
- Chapter 150: What now?
- Chapter 149: Stalker
- Chapter 148: You’re too close for comfort
- Chapter 147: A ticking time bomb
- Chapter 146: Let me breathe
- Chapter 145: You move quick, don’t you?
- Chapter 144: Won’t be the last
- Chapter 143: I know who you really are
- Chapter 142: You’re not dead
- Chapter 141: The lie that changed everything
- Chapter 140: Nothing to look back to
- Chapter 139: Scars fade but never go
- Chapter 138: Let me in
- Chapter 137: Family matters
- Chapter 136: Ugly
- Chapter 135: If im being honest
- Chapter 134: I hope you rot too
- Chapter 133: The road ahead
- Chapter 132: They fall twice as hard
- Chapter 131: Just like the rest of us
- Chapter 130: A room full of twitching bodies
- Chapter 129: Shitty people
- Chapter 128: It’s just a dream, right?
- Chapter 127: With one eye open
- Chapter 126: Not at all what I thought it’d be
- Chapter 125: Solace in my Glock
- Chapter 124: The stench that follows you everywhere
- Chapter 123: always a step ahead
- Chapter 122: The hunted
- Chapter 121: Cold feet
- Chapter 120: It’s over
- Chapter 119: Blood on my hands
- Chapter 118: You can’t go back, Adrian
- Chapter 117: I can burn hotter
- Chapter 116: I’m so sorry
- Chapter 115: I’m sorry
- Chapter 114: Closure
- Chapter 113: Unfamiliar
- Chapter 112: The day everything fell
- Chapter 111: From Missouri to Texas
- Chapter 110: Saints
- Chapter 109: Blood and Shame
- Chapter 108: Unhashed wounds
- Chapter 107: How it was always meant to be
- Chapter 106: Witch
- Chapter 105: Fucking freak
- Chapter 104: Annie and Yas
- Chapter 103: A quiet building
- Chapter 102: Friends and enemies
- Chapter 101: Jealousy
- Chapter 100: Clarity
- Chapter 99: Anarchy
- Chapter 98: Don’t leave me
- Chapter 97: Withdrawal
- Chapter 96: Southern hospitality
- Chapter 95: Mine, not yours
- Chapter 94: Monster
- Chapter 93: By any means possible
- Chapter 92: No right
- Chapter 91: Sweet, loving city I left behind
- Chapter 90: Deep shit
- Chapter 89: Nothing to gain
- Chapter 88: Like moths to a flame
- Chapter 87: April 5, 2017
- Chapter 86: Amber Society
- Chapter 85: Look at the flowers
- Chapter 84: Semblance of normalcy
- Chapter 83: The winning side
- Chapter 82: Just inconvenience
- Chapter 81: Flickering red haze
- Chapter 80: Not dead yet
- Chapter 79: Easy street
- Chapter 78: No one’s coming to save you
- Chapter 77: Anomaly
- Chapter 76: Do what we do best
- Chapter 75: And the second
- Chapter 74: Dust and ash
- Chapter 73: The first crack
- Chapter 72: Throatburn
- Chapter 71: Charity service
- Chapter 70: Obedience
- Chapter 69: A sense of safety
- Chapter 68: The future is bright
- Chapter 67: Brain shortage
- Chapter 66: Power trip
- Chapter 65: Everything to loose
- Chapter 64: A deadly road trip’s end
- Chapter 63: Sleepless nights
- Chapter 62: Delusions of the heart
- Chapter 61: Not the Lily I remember
- Chapter 60: Uglier than I remember
- Chapter 59: We own this city
- Chapter 58: Mind Fractures
- Chapter 57: Compliance is key
- Chapter 56: Different ball park
- Chapter 55: A strand of blonde hair
- Chapter 54: Ego driven
- Chapter 53: Blonde hair, blue streak
- Chapter 52: Control freak
- Chapter 51: Maybe it’s better like this
- Chapter 50: Who’s the real predator?
- Chapter 49: Tick Tock
- Chapter 48: Rely on just me
- Chapter 47: Do you miss me yet?
- Chapter 46: Route 66
- Chapter 45: Point of no return
- Chapter 44: Closer than you think
- Chapter 43: Greater Good
- Chapter 42: It keeps us alive
- Chapter 41: Do we really?
- Chapter 40: Talk, damn you.
- Chapter 39: The morning after
- Chapter 38: Flaming desperation
- Chapter 37: Fault Lines
- Chapter 36: Actions speak louder
- Chapter 35: Fear the infected
- Chapter 34: A river in Egypt
- Chapter 33: For my own good!?!?
- Chapter 32: Reality hits hard like fuck
- Chapter 31: Sleeptalkers
- Chapter 30: Wake up call
- Chapter 29: Like flies to rotten meat
- Chapter 28: Spiderweb
- Chapter 27: City of sorrow
- Chapter 26: Not much to loose
- Chapter 25: Made violent
- Chapter 24: A glimmer of hope
- Chapter 23: Not the bang you wanted?
- Chapter 22: Murderer Douchebag
- Chapter 21: Fine, damn it.
- Chapter 20: You’re safe now
- Chapter 19: Fucking blonde women
- Chapter 18: True nature
- Chapter 17: I can behave
- Chapter 16: Miss Bubblegum
- Chapter 15: Lawless land
- Chapter 14: What lies ahead
- Chapter 13: Maybe a little crazy
- Chapter 12: What they become
- Chapter 11: Train Tracks
- Chapter 10: Ex for a reason
- Chapter 9: Animals
- Chapter 8: New Jersey
- Chapter 7: This isn’t a date, right?
- Chapter 6: Collateral Damage
- Chapter 5: The Grahams make me sick.
- Chapter 4: Forks and knives
- Chapter 3: Goodbye Englewood
- Chapter 2: Are you serious?
- Chapter 1: Damn it all to hell.