Chapter 21: You want me to cheat on you?
Kellen was right about his prediction of how Rhys would react. He’d almost exactly pictured how Rhys would react, minus the tears. The tears were rather surprising, but Kellen had ambushed him as soon as he’d come into their home and sat down on the couch to cuddle Kellen close. Rhys had been looking for the soft comfort of his boyfriend and instead Kellen had dropped a bomb on the man.
“You want me to…what?” Rhys asked, sounding horrified and betrayed all in one. Kellen swallowed.
“I want you to receive basic guiding from Charlie for a little bit. Just so that you can get into top shape.” Kellen told him and Rhys recoiled from Kellen’s touch like it burned him. The tears started immediately after that. His yellow gaze watering as the tears fell easily. Too easily.
Clearly, Rhys was pent up in many, many ways. Kellen felt his heart nearly shatter.
“Don’t cry.” Kellen said softly, shifting closer to Rhys but he shifted away from him. That hurt and Rhys let out a shaky breath.
“You want another man to touch me.” Rhys said, sounding devastated. Kellen sniffed, trying not to get upset. Rhys was reacting to his words, he needed to keep his own emotions under control. Only a few weeks ago Kellen wouldn’t be responding to Rhys moving away from him with tears of his own. He would have looked at it logically. Calmly.
“It’s not just any other man. It’s a man, a boy really, who you have…what? Two decades on? Almost? You’re in your mid thirties and Charlie is almost twenty. I’m not asking you to hold the hand of someone close to your age. I’m asking you to help us with part of two issues. Charlie feeling useless, and my inability to break the equilibrium inside of my body and give you relief.” Rhys looked gutted and Kellen sniffed. “I know that being near me, for you, is enough. I know that, and I am grateful that I have such a wonderful partner.” Kellen started and Rhys seemed to relax a little. “I am not happy with this either. I’m sorry I didn’t make that clear, but I’ve been thinking about this since I got off the phone with one of my Uncles.”
“Who did you speak to?” Rhys asked, his voice raspy. Even hurt, he was checking who Kellen was speaking to. Kellen smirked slightly.
“My Uncle Clancy. He apparently lives in the same city that Brent’s family owns a Guild in.” Rhys didn’t look at all surprised which made Kellen a little angry. Did he already know where Brent was and had kept it from him? They would argue about that later. “Anyway, I’m not happy about this either, but when I went through the list of people that I considered would be best for this, Charlie was at the top of my list. Due to his Class, his ability to help, and how he wouldn’t be taking from anyone else in the Guild.” Rhys flinched.
“Kellen, I don’t want to have anyone but you guide me.” Rhys said and Kellen sighed.
“I know that you’ll be uncomfortable, but I can be with you the whole time. I’ll be by your side. I’m sure Charlie would understand.” Kellen told him and Rhys shook his head slowly. The initial shock of what Kellen had asked of him was fading and now something else was coming over his features.
“It’s not…that. It’s…” Rhys let out a sharp exhale. “It’s the reason why we ever found out we were partners in the first place.” Rhys admitted and Kellen blinked, before understanding dawned on him. Right. Rhys could reverse guide. He could take the powers away from the Guide who was guiding him. Kellen had been so caught up in everything else that he’d kind of forgotten about that.
“Oh. Right.” Kellen said softly, staring at Rhys who looked incredibly uncomfortable now.
“There is also the fact that other people guiding me hurts.” Rhys said and Kellen nodded. How could he forget that Rhys had such a hard time with others guiding him? He had avoided it like the plague before. Casper had to force him into guiding sessions, and yet still the man used his powers left right and center.
Kellen sighed, dropping his head and putting his head in his hand. He was a fool. How had he forgotten something so important? It was like knowing Rhys’ food preferences, and he’d forgotten something so important!
“I’m sorry, Rhys. I guess I just got caught up in everything that I forgot about it.” Kellen muttered and Rhys reached out, putting a hand on his shoulder.
“It’s okay, Kellen. I…I’m shocked that you would bring this up, but…even if I’m reluctant that’s probably…the right call. I know that Green and Hill have been avoiding bringing it up. Hell, even Casper was staring at me like he had a thousand things to say to me but wouldn’t mention them even when I cornered him in his office.” Rhys sounded like he was struggling, and when Kellen raised his head again he could see the troubled expression on his face.
“I should have at least given you a few minutes to settle in before I brought this up. You don’t have to do anything that causes you pain. Or if you think you could hurt Charlie.” Kellen said and Rhys groaned.
“I’m not so far gone that I could hurt him. I made a promise to myself that after I hurt you I would never let myself get that low again. I just…” Rhys grimaced. “I just know that guiding me is also painful for the Guide involved. I’ve received guiding from other S Classes before. You are the only one who has felt good. Better than good. I haven’t even had a half decent guiding session before.” Rhys said and Kellen stared at him.
Now he felt like a damn asshole.
“If you are okay with the idea, we can give Charlie a choice on it. Tell him all the risks involved. I’m already planning to tell Charlie about what it really means to be an S Class soon. We’ve babied him a bit too much, and now he needs to know enough to protect himself. Soon, so that when we’re away, he’s safe.” Rhys swallowed. He clearly was upset still, but it wasn’t the shock and horror of before. He seemed…more upset that he hadn’t considered it himself, if Kellen was honest. Kellen also felt that he wouldn’t have brought it up if he had considered it himself. Out of fear of how Kellen would have taken it.
It was surprising that the S Class would have considered Kellen’s feelings in this. Old Kellen wouldn’t have batted an eyelash at something like this. He really hoped it was just because he was pumped full of poisons and the after effects of what he had experienced in the gate.
“That sounds…shit. I can’t really argue with this idea on principle. It kills me to even consider this, but if we give Charlie the choice, let Green know along with everyone else, I’ll consider it. I want it monitored though. Like we used to do. I want to make sure that he is safe, everyone is safe during the process.” Rhys said firmly and Kellen could easily get behind that.
“I agree. That’s…very reasonable and I would feel more comfortable with that too.” Kellen agreed and Rhys grunted. He pouted.
“Can I get my welcome home hug now?” He asked and Kellen felt a smile touch his lips. He moved forward and Rhys wrapped both arms around Kellen, tucking his head against his shoulder, his grip tight. Rhys inhaled Kellen’s scent and Kellen could feel him physically relax. “I love this part.” Rhys admitted.
“What part?” Kellen asked, teasing the other man but Rhys just sighed, squeezing him slightly.
“The part where I get to come home after a long day and hold you. Squeeze you. Smell you. It’s so hard to be away from you for so long. The others tease me that I look at photos of you in the ’few hours’ I’m away from you, but it’s hard. I just keep thinking that when I open the door, you aren’t-” He cut off, his breathing growing ragged. Kellen just held him, comforting him.
Then he realised something peculiar.
“Photos? Of me? I don’t think that there are that many of me publicly. Did my parents give you some?” Kellen asked and felt Rhys grow rigid in his arms. One second, he was holding Kellen, the next he was on his feet and adjusting his jacket.
“Wow. I should go get a shower and clean up. I must smell.” He was not making a good case for him. Suspicious, Kellen got to his feet and followed after the man who was practically fleeing up the stairs.
“Rhys? Where did you get the photos?” Kellen asked but the man pretended that he hadn’t heard him. “Rhys? You better answer me, or I am going to do something you won’t like.” Kellen warned. That caught his attention. As soon as Kellen’s feet touched the landing and he was somewhere safe, Rhys was growling, angry.
“You are not allowed to hurt yourself.” Rhys warned, his gaze flashing. Kellen narrowed his gaze.
“Who said what I was going to do was going to hurt myself? I have plenty of other ways to torture you right now.” Kellen said, his tone icy. Rhys stared at him, angry, and Kellen was watching him try to figure out what kind of threat Kellen was saying. It was honestly pretty cute of him to be so stubborn but so clueless.
There was one thing that was pretty obvious to Kellen, but for some reason wasn’t popping up in Rhys’ brain. Kellen almost felt a little embarrassed that his brain had gone directly to where it had. Would it have been as effective as he thought against the man when it took this long for him to figure it out?
Rhys gave up, growling as he looked over Kellen. His cheeks warmed and he broke eye contact.
“…The photos came in from the photo shoot.” Rhys mumbled. It took Kellen a second to process what he said, and when he did, his eyes widened and he gasped.
“They did? Are they any good?” Kellen asked. He might have conflicting feelings about the photo shoot, but it was for a good cause. It would do no one any good if they were terrible.
Rhys let out another growl and Kellen watched as he turned another shade darker.
“Too good. You’re too fucking sexy in all of them, even the ones with Brent. I’m pissed. I tried to hoard all of them but Pamela was smart. She even went above my head to select what photos went into the calendar.” His throat worked for a second. “Including a few of the new recruits that didn’t make it.” Kellen felt the mood of the moment shift.
“That’s a really good thing to do.” Kellen said quietly. Rhys nodded.
“Gwen looks good too. It’s clear she’s related to you. She’s good in front of the camera. She’s going to be fighting off men and women alike when she wakes up.” Rhys said with a little smile and Kellen chuckled.
“Don’t tell Dad. He’ll have a heart attack. That’s his little girl you’re talking about.” Kellen joked and Rhys reached out, grabbing Kellen by the back of the neck and forcing his head against his shoulder.
“I’m just going to be glad when all of this is over, everyone is awake, and things feel like they are back to normal.” Rhys admitted and Kellen nodded. He wrapped his arm around Rhys, holding him tight.
They were in agreement about that.
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Chapters
- Chapter 167: Cookies can heal souls if you eat enough of them
- Chapter 166: Everyone needs a little tea time
- Chapter 165: People cry out for help in different ways
- Chapter 164: We all sleep in sometimes
- Chapter 163: It’s so good it makes you philosophical (m)
- Chapter 162: Hungry boys deserve to eat (m)
- Chapter 161: Strawberries and cream never tasted so good (m)
- Chapter 160: Uncontrolled desires (m)
- Chapter 159: An anticipation weeks in the making
- Chapter 158: These Damn Espers
- Chapter 157: Totally not engagement rings. These are just...possessive rings
- Chapter 156: Waiting like a good Guide
- Chapter 155: A true friend will help you run away, even if it hurts
- Chapter 154: The love one holds for their close friends, with the Captain
- Chapter 153: A Captain’s regret, with the Captain
- Chapter 152: What does any of this mean?
- Chapter 151: How did you expect him to be soft?
- Chapter 150: Unable to even help themself
- Chapter 149: No way to avoid this
- Chapter 148: A busy day for a busy man
- Chapter 147: Rumour has it
- Chapter 146: If the shoe fits
- Chapter 145: A woman in over her head
- Chapter 144: What else are you hiding?
- Chapter 143: Two friends making time for each other
- Chapter 142: You can’t be together if you never even tried to get better
- Chapter 141: You belong in my bed
- Chapter 140: What it means to be a best friend
- Chapter 139: Do not use your grief to limit others
- Chapter 138: A good talk with a good friend
- Chapter 137: A phone call weeks in the works
- Chapter 136: Just an innocent Guide
- Chapter 135: Not everyone is a good person when no one is watching
- Chapter 134: Gunther, a man who just wants to feel at home again
- Chapter 133: Gunther, a man behind but getting better
- Chapter 132: A big dumb S Class
- Chapter 131: Rhys is never going to forget what he did
- Chapter 130: Forgiveness does not come easily, but understanding does
- Chapter 129: Truth always finds a way to come out
- Chapter 128: This kind of jealousy could eat you alive
- Chapter 127: Two brothers, created equal, shaped differently
- Chapter 126: What it means to be cared for
- Chapter 125: A man holding his whole heart
- Chapter 124: A treat for a Guide simply doing his best
- Chapter 123: A grandfather’s love for his grandson
- Chapter 122: A cat playing with a mouse
- Chapter 121: To stand there and do nothing
- Chapter 120: This isn’t about you, I need to vent my rage
- Chapter 119: Well, that’s one way to get into a Guild building
- Chapter 118: A Field Guide far away from home
- Chapter 117: Sometimes we all need someone to yell at someone for us
- Chapter 116: A Guide shoulder to lean on
- Chapter 115: Two Guides who can manage their Espers
- Chapter 114: What am I going to do with all this money?
- Chapter 113: A Guide’s duty to guide
- Chapter 112: It’s okay to be a little crazy
- Chapter 111: A step by step plan
- Chapter 110: We do not touch civilians
- Chapter 109: An old man with a grudge
- Chapter 108: Come on, you’re not my Mom
- Chapter 107: Some things just can’t be avoided
- Chapter 106: Trading one confinement for another
- Chapter 105: Medical professionals are human too
- Chapter 104: Sometimes a gentle touch is all someone needs
- Chapter 103: Fueled by rage
- Chapter 102: Do these dots connect?
- Chapter 101: May I offer a joke in these trying times?
- Chapter 100: Don’t mess with my people, with the Captain
- Chapter 99: What the hell was that, with the Captain
- Chapter 98: Breaking out with the Captain
- Chapter 97: A Woods family adoption
- Chapter 96: A man and a paper
- Chapter 95: Sergei hates public speaking
- Chapter 94: A little scatterbrained
- Chapter 93: Lost in a daze
- Chapter 92: Two lovers on different paths
- Chapter 91: Actions have consequences
- Chapter 90: An uncomfortable conversation
- Chapter 89: A secret that can’t be kept for long
- Chapter 88: No one is ever going to blame you
- Chapter 87: Kellen can never stay still
- Chapter 86: My two gay dads
- Chapter 85: Feeling like a failure
- Chapter 84: Presumptuous little Taytay
- Chapter 83: A battle of wills
- Chapter 82: A flustered Healer
- Chapter 81: Everything isn’t quite so green
- Chapter 80: Sergei has what now?
- Chapter 79: Hard negotiations
- Chapter 78: A new, shiny gun
- Chapter 77: A good morning
- Chapter 76: A sweet debrief
- Chapter 75: A little something to take the edge off (suggestive)
- Chapter 74: These aren’t off limits anymore?
- Chapter 73: A kettle about to boil over
- Chapter 72: A badge of honour
- Chapter 71: Just a little snack
- Chapter 70: Put your nose in it
- Chapter 69: Am I not providing enough for you?
- Chapter 68: We all have something we don’t want to do
- Chapter 67: An all communication black out
- Chapter 66: A serious conversation about the James family
- Chapter 65: An S Class and her Lieutenants
- Chapter 64: A shy admittance and a protective Aunt
- Chapter 63: Espers do not do well when Guides are missing limbs
- Chapter 62: Every Captain is different
- Chapter 61: Meet Auntie Dina, in the flesh
- Chapter 60: A captive audience (violence/death warning)
- Chapter 59: I hoped for better, honestly
- Chapter 58: An Esper can be cute too
- Chapter 57: A friendly face at a shitty party
- Chapter 56: Brent in the big city
- Chapter 55: Sergei’s thoughts
- Chapter 54: A shadow of a Brent
- Chapter 53: Hiding a truth with the Captain
- Chapter 52: An emotional Guide?
- Chapter 51: Just one touch
- Chapter 50: What the Captain doesn’t know won’t hurt him
- Chapter 49: Just some gals having a good time
- Chapter 48: We love a little debrief
- Chapter 47: Stirring the pot
- Chapter 46: Cleared for leave, not for play
- Chapter 45: I know crazy runs in the family, but I didn’t come here for a crazy off
- Chapter 44: Two hospital rooms, days apart
- Chapter 43: One last final scare
- Chapter 42: Marking territory
- Chapter 41: Everyone is going to play with Charlie
- Chapter 40: Pain means it’s working
- Chapter 39: This isn’t as fun anymore
- Chapter 38: Everyone likes juice boxes
- Chapter 37: The Guides know best
- Chapter 36: Just be honest with us
- Chapter 35: A towel can help any situation
- Chapter 34: Just a couple of bad boys
- Chapter 33: A tense negotiation
- Chapter 32: I can’t believe we overlooked something so damn simple
- Chapter 31: A complication
- Chapter 30: A sudden jolt of pain
- Chapter 29: Quick to anger, hard to calm down
- Chapter 28: Not dead yet
- Chapter 27: A wandering mind
- Chapter 26: Too inexperienced to know better
- Chapter 25: The weight of an S Class Esper on a Guide
- Chapter 24: Code blue
- Chapter 23: A meeting of like minds
- Chapter 22: Not everything is good news
- Chapter 21: You want me to cheat on you?
- Chapter 20: An Uncle’s worry
- Chapter 19: If you take my arm, I’ll just get cooler
- Chapter 18: A Casper shaped spiral
- Chapter 17: A child’s room full of regret
- Chapter 16: They’re just like us
- Chapter 15: An unhappy S Class
- Chapter 14: I can make this apartment our forever home
- Chapter 13: A hissing, angry burrito
- Chapter 12: The worries of an anxious Field Guide
- Chapter 11: An itch that can’t be scratched
- Chapter 10: A serious dilemma
- Chapter 9: A lazy lion
- Chapter 8: Are you serious right now?
- Chapter 7: If that’s the case, this could have been a damn email!
- Chapter 6: Old type Villain shit
- Chapter 5: A warm family welcome
- Chapter 4: A little bit of sanity is needed
- Chapter 3: A deep wound that will heal
- Chapter 2: The Road back to the City
- Chapter 1: I fucked up