Chapter 187 187: Without You!
Chapter 187 187: Without You!
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After the end-of-year feast, the castle shifted gears, trunks scraped all over, owls sulked about the sky with last-minute deliveries, and the air smelled faintly of summer and stress. Cassian had just shrunk his bookshelf (carefully labelled, colour-coded, and mildly cursed to hiss if mishandled) when someone knocked at his door.
He cracked it open, expecting a student with a forgotten wand or perhaps a misguided attempt at bribery. Instead, Penelope Clearwater stood on the other side, arms folded, eyes on the floor.
“Miss Clearwater.”
She looked up, faintly startled, like she’d forgotten what she was doing.
“What can I do for you?”
“Sir, can I have a word with you, please?”
Cassian didn’t bother hiding the raised eyebrow. Still, he stepped out, let the door click shut behind him, and walked her down to his office.
Inside, he lit the kettle with a flick, set two mugs on the desk, and slid a tin of biscuits toward her. She didn’t move for the tin.
He poured the water. “Milk? Sugar? Existential crisis?”
She laughed, awkward and quiet. “Just tea, thanks.”
He handed her the mug, then sat, stretching his legs out under the desk. She clutched the drink.
“Alright,” Cassian said. “What’s on your mind? And before you try to lie, your guilt face could sell out a spy ring.”
She didn’t laugh this time. “I’m not going to the Ministry.”
“Right. Good start. More context?”
“I…” She stopped. Her fingers tapped the side of the mug. “I was supposed to. I even got the offer. Something in International Magical Relations.”
“Ah,” he said. “One of the bright ones Fudge can’t wait to stick in a filing cabinet.”
She blinked, caught between a smile and a wince. “I thought it was what I wanted.”
“But now?”
“I don’t know.”
Cassian poured his tea. “Bit late to change your N.E.W.T.s.”
She shook her head. “No… it’s not the work. It’s… the system. I used to think it mattered. That I could fix things from inside. Then I started watching.”
He didn’t interrupt.
Penelope glanced up. “Your classes didn’t help.”
“Thank you,” he said dryly. “I do try to sow civil unrest where I can.”
“It’s not that.” She flushed. “It’s just… you made us think. Properly. Not just about spells or duelling tactics, but history. How it repeats. How people lie. What’s ignored.”
She fidgeted again, hands wrapping tighter round the mug. “And Percy…” She stopped, looking away bashfully. “We were… we were a thing.”
Cassian raised a brow. “I taught the whole school, Clearwater. Not the ceiling. It wasn’t exactly subtle.”
Penelope blushed so hard it looked painful. “You knew?”
“Everyone knew,” he said, deadpan. “You only just stopped short of engraving your initials into the library tables.”
Her blush deepened. “We… broke up. A month ago.”
“Ah.”
“He’s… he’s still very Ministry. Rules. Order. Believes if the paperwork says something, it must be right.”
“Optimistic, that one.”
She nodded. “I thought I could be that too. But after this year…” She trailed off. “Everything with Black. And Professor Lupin. And Pettigrew. How much was hidden. How much nearly went wrong.” Her voice got quiet. “I don’t know if I trust it anymore. The Ministry.”
“Right. So you’re standing at the edge of the Ministry’s glittering path, realising it’s just a slightly polished bog, and wondering if wading through it will drown you.”
She blinked. “Yes.”
He gave a noncommittal grunt. “Well, welcome to adulthood.”
Penelope gave a weak smile.
He picked up his mug again. “Look, Clearwater. The Ministry’s not evil. Just lazy. Arrogant. Bloated. Like a bureaucracy that tried to eat a kingdom and choked on its own filing cabinets.”
Her smile twitched wider.
“Now, if you want to work there, you can. You’ll be useful. Sharp, good with details, and enough backbone to stand your ground. But don’t expect it to thank you. Or reward honesty. That place feeds off compliance.”
She nodded slowly.
“But if you’re asking what I think,” he went on, “then no, I don’t reckon it’s the best fit. Not yet. You still think rules are meant to help people. That won’t survive three staff meetings with Crouch.”
She snorted into her tea. “So what, I run off to the mountains and become a magical goat herder?”
“Tempting. But I’d suggest something less cold and less goat-heavy. There are good places. Research, teaching, private consultancies. Go where your skills are needed, not where they’re swallowed.”
Penelope looked up. “Would you write me a reference?”
Cassian didn’t hesitate. “Already in your file. Dated, signed, and scarily complimentary.”
She looked like she might cry, but blinked it back.
“Thank you,” she said, quietly.
He got up and reached for the cabinet by the desk.
“I can put you in touch with a few people,” he said, flicking through a half-jammed drawer. “Real minds, not Ministry drones. If you want to study deeper, which I believe you should, actually study, not just warm a chair at some diplomatic meet-and-smile loop. They’d be lucky to have you.”
Penelope squeezed the mug gently in her hands.
“Truth is,” he went on, rifling through envelopes, “the Ministry doesn’t want brilliance. They want reliable cogs. Neat little wheels that spin when told. Every edge you’ve got, every thought that doesn’t fit the template, they’ll file it down until you don’t even notice what they’ve taken.”
She blinked, not sure where he was going.
“They’ll give you a title. Maybe an office with a window if you last long enough. But the work? It’ll all be scaffolding for the next bloke. The one with the family name or the right handshake. You’ll sit in meetings where no one listens, drafting memos for people who don’t care, and if you speak too loud…” He tapped a finger against the side of his head. “Out you go. No fuss. Just shuffled into something ‘better suited to your temperament.'”
He finally found the parchment he’d been after and placed it onto the desk. He slid the envelope across the desk.
“System needs pieces to keep wheeling, Miss Clearwater. But we’re not all circles and smooth edges. Some of us are jagged, wrong-shaped, inconvenient.”
Penelope didn’t move. Watched the paper.
“If you want to be part of something bigger,” he said, “that’s fair. Noble, even. The Ministry does serve people, on good days. There’s value in that.”
He leaned back slightly, the chair creaking beneath him.
“But you,” he said, tilting his head, “you’re too sharp to get blunted down into a cog. Would be a bloody shame to watch you get trimmed into something you’re not.”
She swallowed hard. The silence in the room grew a little heavier.
“Now, Mr Weasley,” Cassian went on, “he’s already halfway shaped for the machine. Starchy shirt, polished badge, five-year plan. He’ll make it work. Until the day his own cracks start showing, and he has to choose, cut those bits off, or walk.”
Penelope’s eyes flicked up. She didn’t argue.
“You,” he said, “you’ll have to make that choice every day. Whether to fit, or to stay whole.”
She didn’t say anything. Just stared at the rim of her cup.
Cassian didn’t push her.
She made her decision.
***
Cassian was halfway through charming his trunk shut when something in his mind buzzed wrong. His stomach dropped.
The bag thudded to the floor as he bolted. The locking charms flared faintly as he reached the door. He shoved his wand forward, stripped the rest off with a sharp flick, and burst inside.
“Bathsheda?”
She was on the floor.
One arm limp under her, the other twisted against her stomach. Her head tilted back like she’d tried to sit up and hadn’t quite managed.
Cassian was at her side in a second, wand out, spells flying. Diagnostics first, neurological, magical fatigue, potion residues, curse traces. A whole sweep in under ten seconds. Her mind was in shambles.
Cassian’s gut clenched.
“Bloody hell, Baths,” he muttered, half to her, half to the air. “What did you do this time?”
Her pulse was uneven, too fast. He’d seen overdrawn magicks look like this, too much channeling, too little rest, the mind catching fire faster than it could cool. But Bathsheda wasn’t hot-headed or reckless. She taught children how to be safe, for God’s sake.
“Alright, come on then.” He gathered her up, arms hooking under her knees and shoulders.
He carried her out the door and straight down the main corridor. Madam Pomfrey was mid-pack, trunk hovering beside her, scarf half-tied around her collar when they arrived.
She saw the state of them and frowned, hard. “What in Merlin’s-?”
Cassian stepped straight past her into the nearest bed bay. “She dropped. No curses. Magic’s burning out. Might be feedback, might be mental overload.”
Pomfrey followed, already pulling out a tray of vials and charms. “Set her down.”
He laid Bathsheda gently on the mattress. Her breathing was shallow, lips pale.
“Looks like her mind’s caught in a loop,” he said.
“Sensory overload? Dream spill?”
“Possibly. Or something’s leaking through memory barriers.”
Pomfrey didn’t stop moving. She slipped a pale blue stone under Bathsheda’s palm, pressed her wand against her sternum. “Heart’s stable. Magical pulse is erratic.”
Cassian stood at the foot of the bed, arms crossed, jaw tight.
Madam Pomfrey hovered a bit longer, wand flicking through the final checks. Then, with a soft huff, she reached for two vials from the tray and eased one between Bathsheda’s lips, then the next.
“She’ll be out for a day, maybe longer,” she said, adjusting the pillow behind Bathsheda’s head. “I’ll stay and monitor-“
Cassian shook his head. “No need. I’ll take her to St Mungo’s if she turns into a banshee.”
Pomfrey hesitated. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah, you shouldn’t miss the ride. I’m not paying for it if you miss it.”
That made her snort, reluctantly. “Let me know how she does, then.” She gave Bathsheda a last glance. “See you after summer, Cassian.”
He gave a lazy wave. “You too, Poppy.”
When the door clicked shut behind her, the room fell properly quiet. Cassian stayed still for a long moment, listening to the soft hum. He hated the scent of antiseptic potion. He busied himself by straightening the blanket, adjusting the angle of her pillow, anything to keep his hands from shaking.
He then sat, arms folded over his knees for a second, then leaned forward and rested his forehead lightly against her arm.
“What the hell happened,” he muttered.
No answer, of course. Just the slow, even rise of her breathing.
He stayed like that, head bowed, waiting for her to stir.
It took her nearly a full day to come round. Cassian had dozed off in the chair beside her, chin tipped forward, hair a right mess. The sound of her shifting stirred him up.
He blinked, sat up fast, then reached for the jug on the bedside table. “Water,” he muttered, pouring too quickly and nearly sloshing it over his hand. “You’re alive. Excellent. Your breath stinks, by the way.”
Bathsheda gave a weak eye-roll that said you’re insufferable, but she still let him help her sit up. Her fingers trembled when she took the glass, and Cassian steadied it with one hand as she drank.
When she set it down, she drew in a careful breath. “How long?”
“Twenty-three hours. You’ve beaten your old record.”
Her eyes flicked to him, dry as dust. “You keep track?”
“Of course. Makes it easier to gloat later.”
She huffed, the corner of her mouth lifting, then winced slightly as she shifted against the pillow.
“Easy,” Cassian said, reaching out instinctively. “You move like someone who’s fallen down a staircase.”
She shot him a flat look. “That’s oddly specific.”
He shrugged. “Had a traumatic school life.”
Her lips twitched, then faltered when a ripple of dizziness caught her.
“What happened?” he asked, trying to keep it light. Worried but the last thing he wanted was to dump it on her.
Bathsheda didn’t answer. Looked past him, out the window maybe, though there wasn’t much to see.
He tapped her arm. “Love?”
Her gaze drifted back to his.
“Cass…” Her voice rasped. “I have a new set of memories.”
His brow pulled tight. “Granger caused another time-fracture?”
Bathsheda shook her head slowly. “No. This was five years’ worth.”
He went still.
Five years.
No wonder she’d dropped. That kind of mental load would fry anyone.
What could’ve caused such a—
Cassian stopped mid-thought.
“I’ve memories of Hogwarts without you.”
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- Chapter 320 320: Like a Butterfly
- Chapter 319 319: Three Patronuses
- Chapter 318 318: Storm
- Chapter 317 317: Festive!
- Chapter 316 316: Change the World
- Chapter 315 315: Age of the Fine Bronze
- Chapter 314 314: Valley of Magic
- Chapter 313
- Chapter 312
- Chapter 311 311: Students vs Professors
- Chapter 310 310: Sword
- Chapter 309 309: Ashfal
- Chapter 308 308: Plague
- Chapter 307 307: Open Class
- Chapter 306 306: Double Wedding
- Chapter 305 305: Separation
- Chapter 304 304: Veil
- Chapter 303 303: Plans!
- Chapter 302 302: Gamble
- Chapter 301 301: Offer!
- Chapter 300 300: Bathael
- Chapter 299 299: Miracle
- Chapter 298 298: Death
- Chapter 297 297: Elder Wand
- Chapter 296 296: Sigh!
- Chapter 295 295: Lilies and Memories
- Chapter 294 294: Rage
- Chapter 293 293: Bark
- Chapter 292 292: Purge
- Chapter 291 291: Portal
- Chapter 290 290: Date!
- Chapter 289 289: Cabinet
- Chapter 288 288: It's a Date!
- Chapter 287 287: Space
- Chapter 286 286: Renunciation
- Chapter 285 285: Apparition
- Chapter 284 284: Revelio!
- Chapter 283 283: Staff
- Chapter 282 282: Goblins
- Chapter 281 281: Vault
- Chapter 280 280: Luck!
- Chapter 279 279: Moonspit and Romance
- Chapter 278 278: Cloak
- Chapter 277 277: Blood Curse and Talents
- Chapter 276 276: Amortal
- Chapter 275 275: Locket
- Chapter 274 274: WWW
- Chapter 273 273: Evil
- Chapter 272 272: Souls
- Chapter 271 271: Acclaim
- Chapter 270 270: Same Old Dread
- Chapter 269 269: Home
- Chapter 268 268: Curse and Worse
- Chapter 267 267: Self-Fulfilling
- Chapter 266 266: Child Soldier
- Chapter 265 265: Fury
- Chapter 264 264: Surprise!
- Chapter 263 263: Fight!
- Chapter 262 262: Hate
- Chapter 261 261: Family Reunion
- Chapter 260 260: Traitor
- Chapter 259 259: He'll Die!
- Chapter 258 258: The Real Dark Lord
- Chapter 257 257: Cheat
- Chapter 256 256: Exams
- Chapter 255 255: Career Advice
- Chapter 254 254: Prophecies
- Chapter 253 253: Shell
- Chapter 252 252: Drunk Phoenix
- Chapter 251 251: Choice
- Chapter 250 250: Winky
- Chapter 249 249: Wardnet
- Chapter 248 248: Past, Present and Future
- Chapter 247 247: Collection
- Chapter 246 246: Giant
- Chapter 245 245: Fire Eaters
- Chapter 244 244: Worry
- Chapter 243 243: Teacher
- Chapter 242 242: Tree
- Chapter 241 241: Duel!
- Chapter 240 240: Magic-tech?
- Chapter 239 239: CCL
- Chapter 238 238: Hem Hem
- Chapter 237 237: Insane!
- Chapter 236 236: Power the Dark Lord Knows Not
- Chapter 235 235: Proud
- Chapter 234 234: Drained
- Chapter 233 233: Compensate
- Chapter 232 232: Ritual
- Chapter 231 231: Portkey
- Chapter 230 230: Maze
- Chapter 229 229: Alive!
- Chapter 228 228: Targeted Teaching
- Chapter 227 227: Dread
- Chapter 226 226: Law
- Chapter 225 225: Second Task!
- Chapter 224 224: Justified Rage
- Chapter 223 223: Sick
- Chapter 222 222: Love Potion
- Chapter 221 221: Muffin
- Chapter 220 220: Double Date
- Chapter 219 219: DRAGONS!
- Chapter 218 218: Balls
- Chapter 217 217: Ancient Variant of an Ancient Variant?
- Chapter 216 216: The Tragic Courtship Display of the British Adolescent
- Chapter 215 215: First Task
- Chapter 214 214: Contract
- Chapter 213 213: Spy
- Chapter 212 212: Four Seasons
- Chapter 211 211: Napkin Tournaments
- Chapter 210 210: Champions!
- Chapter 209 209: Worth!
- Chapter 208 208: Guests!
- Chapter 207 207: Accio My Beloved!
- Chapter 206 206: H.E.A.R.T.
- Chapter 205 205: Shield
- Chapter 204 204: Acclimation
- Chapter 203 203: Hexing Students
- Chapter 202 202: Simple
- Chapter 201 201: Intent
- Chapter 200 200: Quintic-Magick Cup
- Chapter 199 199: The Bug!
- Chapter 198 198: Attack!
- Chapter 197 197: Warning!
- Chapter 196 196: Pet
- Chapter 195 195: Unwelcomed
- Chapter 194 194: Dread
- Chapter 193 193: Djinn
- Chapter 192 192: Wake and Heed My Command
- Chapter 191 191: Monsters!
- Chapter 190 190: Awake
- Chapter 189 189: Force
- Chapter 188 188: Politics
- Chapter 187 187: Without You!
- Chapter 186 186: Avada
- Chapter 185 185: Smile!
- Chapter 184 184: Immune
- Chapter 183 183: Freeze!
- Chapter 182 182: A Fool's Chronicles - It's April! Part 2 (Read After Ch170)
- Chapter 181 181: Moon
- A Fool’s Chronicles – It’s April! Part 2 (Read After Ch170)
- Chapter 180 180: Always
- Chapter 179 179: Ominous
- Chapter 178 178: A Fool's Chronicles - It's April! Part 1 (Read After Ch170)
- A Fool’s Chronicles – It’s April! Part 1 (Read After Ch170)
- Chapter 177 177: Rat
- Chapter 176 176: Love
- Chapter 175 175: Serious Howl
- Chapter 174 174: MWPP
- Chapter 173 173: Map
- Chapter 172 172: Patronus
- Chapter 171 171: Grim
- Chapter 170 170: Chimera
- Chapter 169 169: Cushions
- Chapter 168 168: Duel?
- Chapter 167 167: Praise
- Chapter 166 166: Headmasters
- Chapter 165 165: Forced!
- Chapter 164 164: Liar!
- Chapter 163 163: Druid
- Chapter 162 162: No
- Chapter 161 161: Damn You, Sirius Black!
- Chapter 160 160: Dementors!
- Chapter 159 159: Fear
- Chapter 158 158: Logic
- Chapter 157 157: Rewind!
- Chapter 156 156: Boggart
- Chapter 155 155: Cookie?
- Chapter 154 154: Crack
- Chapter 153 153: Mouse
- Chapter 152 152: Siriusly?
- Chapter 151 151: Foam
- Chapter 150 150: Events
- Chapter 149 149: Alternate Reality
- Chapter 148 148: Footpath
- Chapter 147 147: Ngaralu
- Chapter 146 146: Call!
- Chapter 145 145: Noctis
- Chapter 144 144: Summer
- Chapter 143 143: Power
- Chapter 142 142: Thief's Chronicle I - The Burden (Read After -Rowena vs Illiteracy-)
- Chapter 141 141: Dismissed
- Thief’s Chronicle I – The Burden (Read After -Rowena vs Illiteracy-)
- Chapter 140 140: Memory Wipe!
- Chapter 139 139: Dark
- Chapter 138 138: Riddle!
- Chapter 137 137: Chamber
- Chapter 136 136: Sacked
- Chapter 135 135: Creed
- Chapter 134 134: Valentine's
- Chapter 133 133: Ash
- Chapter 132 132: Favours
- Ch131- Sacked
- Ch130- Creed
- Ch129- Valentine’s
- Ch128- Ash
- Ch127- Favours
- Ch126- Spectacle-s
- Ch125- Shot!
- Ch124- Lost
- Ch123- Yule
- Ch122- Clue!
- Ch121- Parselmouth
- Ch120- Duel
- Ch119- Joy
- Ch118- Decision!
- Ch117- Blah Blah Law
- Ch116- Crack
- Ch115- Confess
- Ch114- Especially!
- Ch113- Rogue
- Ch112- Bird is the Word!
- Ch111- Parents
- Ch110- Damn You Lucius!
- Ch109- NO!
- Ch108- Daisy
- Ch107- Trust Me Bro, Click the Link
- Ch106- Hello, World!
- Ch105- Bad Decisions!
- Ch104- Wand!
- Ch103- Star!
- Ch102- Dragon Wakes!
- Ch101- Shrine
- Ch100- Meeting
- Ch99- Punch
- Ch98- Invest All!
- Ch97- Gate
- Ch96- Never Forget!
- Ch95- Forget!
- Ch94- Immortal Couple
- Ch93- Curse or Gift
- Ch92- Mob
- C- Between the Lines #3 – Rowena vs Illiteracy (Read After Ch 30)
- Ch91- Break
- Ch90- Temple
- Ch89- Family First
- Ch88- House-Visit
- Ch87- Bloody Rosier
- Ch86- Points
- Ch85- Play
- Ch84- The Obstacle
- Ch83- Would He?
- Ch82- Ignivolatus
- Ch81- Say It!
- Ch80- Wraith
- Ch79- Murder Forest
- Ch78- Summon
- Ch77- Comfortable
- Ch76- Bond!
- Ch75- Dragon?
- Ch74- Secrets
- Ch73- Erase!
- Ch72- Memory
- Curse Logs #1 – Marius Vale (Read After Ch 28)
- Ch71- Thief
- Ch70- Mirror
- Between the Lines #3 – Regulus vs Lucius(Read After Ch 58)
- Ch69- Crushing Defeat
- Ch68- Chess
- Ch67- Snow
- Ch66- Game On
- Ch65- Soaked
- Between the Lines #2 – Gryffindor vs Ghost (Read After Ch 56)
- Ch64- Leviosaaa!
- Ch63- Troll
- Ch62- Flawed
- Between the Lines #1 – Slytherin vs Badger (Read After Ch 56)
- Ch61- Tribute
- Ch60- Punishment
- Ch59- Fly!
- Ch58- Daddy!
- Ch57- A DAMN PEN!
- Ch56- WHY?!
- Ch55- The Greatest Creation!
- Ch54- Revenge!
- Ch53- Secrets?
- Ch52- Measure of Deterrence
- Ch51- New Year
- Ch50- Potter
- Ch49- Yoghurt
- Ch48- Return
- Ch47- Master Ji
- Ch46- SMELLS LIKE… LIES!
- Ch45- Extra
- Ch44- Türkiye
- Ch43- Troublesome Runes
- Ch42- Eureka
- Ch41- Pungent
- Ch40- Hot!
- Ch39- Gravitas
- Ch38- Serious?
- Ch37- A Rosier
- Ch36- Not That Name!
- Ch35- Staff Meeting
- Ch34- Somewhere Else
- Ch33- Age Line
- Ch32- Coward!
- Spells and Ancient Varriants
- Ch31- Academic Liabilities
- Ch30- Founders
- Ch29- Soooo…
- Ch28- New Professor
- Ch27- Magical Contraception
- Ch26- Mind Magic
- Ch25- Brand
- Ch24- Fjords
- Ch23- Brain Drills
- Ch22- Almost A Proper One
- Ch21- Collapse
- Ch20- Ancient Cave
- Ch19- Family
- Ch18- Bloody Historians
- Ch17- Curse
- Ch16- Surviving the Year
- Ch15- Bathsheda Babbling
- Ch14- Aromic Bomb
- Ch13- Selena Rosier
- Ch12- Softening Charm
- Ch11- Unerasable History
- Ch10- Kitchen
- Ch9- The Witch!
- Ch8- First Lesson
- Ch7- New Year Begins
- Ch6- Professor Rosier
- Ch5- Lucian Rosier
- Ch4- Teacher?
- Ch3- Lumos
- Ch2- List
- Ch1- Useless. Failure. A Joke!
- Character Images